The morning after...

I am going to write about last night- the worst night in my life this far.

Father called me and told me grandfather had died.

It was hard to talk on the phone, but I said I be at the hospital right away.

I cried while getting dressed, I cried in the car...and I cried when my mother met me at the entrance.

My father,brother,grandmother, uncle and aunt where there also.

Feelt good to be around family but still so sad.

Its not often you have to see your loves ones cry.

And to see your family cries openly..from their hearts, is heart-breaking.

I did not know what to expect, I had never seen a dead person before.

We all went into his room, and he looked so peaceful with his hands placed on his chest looking like He was praying.

I caressed his head.

I cried some more.

My aunt read some verses from the Bible and it was beautiful.

My mother and little brother hugged me and tried to comfort me as good as they could.

I really admire my brother, he is the the strongest person i have ever meet.

And when I say strong I mean inside.

After we all had said good bye we took grandmother and my grandfathers brother back to my parents house.

We talked, drank som tea and whiskey and eat...

My grandmother took it very well I must say , but she have said that they had a good life together and it was for the best.

We went home late and I got to bed.

Cried some more with strong arms around me.

Woke up early today and lighted a candle and prayed.

It feels better today.

I know he is looking over me from heaven.

One day we meet again and then we will be playing cards grandpa!

And maybe I will let you win... once.

R.I.P.

Birger Carlsson

1913-2008

May the angles be with you

He is in heaven now.

My sweet grandfather died today at 19:50.

I love you!

Blott en dag, ett ögonblick i sänder,

vilken tröst vad än som kommer på!

Allt ju vilar i min Faders händer,

skulle jag, som barn, väl ängslas då?

Han som bär för mig en Faders hjärta,

giver ju åt varje nyfödd dag

dess beskärda del av fröjd och smärta,

möda, vila och behag.

Själv han är mig alla dagar nära,

för var särskild tid med särskild nåd.

Varje dags bekymmer vill han bära,

han som heter både Kraft och Råd.

Att sin dyra egendom bevara,

denna omsorg har han lagt på sig.

“Som din dag, så skall din kraft ock vara,”

detta löfte gav han mig.

Hjälp mig då att vila tryggt och stilla

blott vid dina löften, Herre kär,

ej min tro och ej den tröst förspilla,

som i ordet mig förvarad är.

Hjälp mig, Herre,

att vad helst mig händer,

taga ur din trogna fadershand

blott en dag, ett ögonblick i sänder,

tills jag nått det goda land.

Would you?

Would you dance

if I asked you to dance?

Would you run

and never look back?

Would you cry

if you saw me crying?

And would you save my soul, tonight?

Would you tremble

if I touched your lips?

Would you laugh?

Oh please tell me this.

Now would you die

for the one you loved?

Hold me in your arms, tonight.

Would you swear

that you'll always be mine?

Or would you lie?

would you run and hide?

Am I in too deep?

Have I lost my mind?

I don't care... You're here tonight.

Oh, I just want to hold you.

I just want to hold you.

Am I in too deep?

Have I lost my mind?

I don't care...You're here tonight.

Raindrops keep falling on my head...

Good evening people.

Today there where dancing...

Dancing in the kitchen, moving the hips and laughter with Lovely S.
Made some meat-loaf, fishsoup, ham & cheese pie and a vegetable-gratin for todays menu.

The guest said it tasted good so I am happy.

After 8 hours at work I had a chef-meeting to attend...


Mostly my boss who talked about his "great" ideas..hihi
But..also thoughts and ideas from us chefs..and of course from H.
That is a girl who work with me and S and we dont like her.. not at all...
She is fake and I really dont like that.
Tell me what You think about me or my friends and I will accept it, but dont backstab anyone You work with just to be friends with me..then You loose my respect immediately.

After an hour or so S joined me to the gym for a while and I think I was there for 1.5 hours .
Just when it felt as good it could be and I had the flow... some people should get starting some sort of aerobic class, and I thought; nice...some high music from the speakers. Me like.
But... it went not exactly how I wanted.

When I heard the first sentence from the song :
In the djungle, the mighty djungle the lions sleeps tonight...

I got to the changingroom ...

I really cant work out to the music of The Lion king :-)

So...got home and made some dinner:

Sliced chicken
Mixed vegetables
Chilli
Carlic
Soy sauce
Sweet chilli sauce

Wook until done

Bon appetit!

Now I sit in the bed with crossed legs and the laptop in my knee.
Still have that music on from last night.
Its weird how some songs can get straight in to Your heart.
This is one of them.
Thank You again sweet M for that!

Another M called me last night...and there will be a HUGE girl-party in a couple of weeks.
Yeeeeey!!!

High heels, a nice dress, extentions, long nails and a make up that will take forever to make...
But..its worth it.

I wonder if its not a party this saturday also.
This time with S.
That means it will be great, it always is.

Oh...Its good to be a girl!

A glance of my new balcony...

Today I have not done that much worth writing about...

Worked early, mades some lemon cookies, baked some bread and made a raspberry fromage.

After that I went to the gym for 1.5 hours and then back to work to give S a smile or two.

Think I manage that pretty well...

Now I just got home and thinking about open my book again while I have some time alone...Maybe a cup of tea and some lighted candles also...

But, I thought I would show You some pictures of how I am gonna decorate my balcony.

Think oriental and cosy...

Warm and welcome...

And most of all: a place to just be...

Some pictures of beautiful Ganesh...

And of course I wanna have a palm there...

Ligthed candles all over...Me like

My Egyptian waterpipe is a matter of course...

Pillows... a lots of pillows on the floor

This sofa "Agadir" will be just perfect

Over and out!

I´m bringing sexy back...

Hey people!

First of all ; Welcome back to Sweden sweet P.

I hope You wont freeze to death of the slightly temperature difference of 20 degrees or something...

And I am dying to see Your pictures, maybe over a glass of red wine?

Today I worked late and we had kind of a busy day.

I have a very special kind of humour and thanks God S have that also.

So...when we are very busy we try to make each other laugh.

This time it was S sneaking up behind me, trying to make "sexy" sounds...in german.

No one can sound sexy in germany.

Its a awful language.

I study both german and spanish for 3 years in school and I am learing S the best of that of course.

Haha..so, now she is spitting out terrible words that makes me laugh everytime.

I am very proud of her as You can image!

I was so tired of working with people this night...

Old men flirting,trying to play with me while I was really busy and grumpy ladies that never got satisfied.

I wonder; why on earth do they think I am going to flirt with them?

They are like 50 years old?

And...dont play with me when I have other things to do...

I like making my guest smile and having a good time but its a different when they see I have my hands full and 20 other guest to take care of.

There...now it feels much better!

So..what more did I do today.

Oh, i bought a new lipgloss, that kind that sticks on your lips for at least 6 hours.

Me like a lot... Girls, go out and buy!

I have a light complexion so I use Loréal Glam shine Forever Nude.Now I sit...or more lay in the sofa having a bowl with vanilla yoghurt and bits of peach.

Some soft music on the speakers, Sholomo Artzi - a song I´ve got dedicated to Me.

Very beautiful...Thank You for that!

Aaah...I am so longing for the next time to party and dance.

Hmm, guess I have to get my girls together and make that dancefloor dangerous...

Thats all for now my Sweet readers.

Good night and sleep tight!

The secret way to my Heart...

The secret way to my Heart is spelled Chai Latte.

This lovley pink jar with delicious tea powder have a flavour of cardemom, cinnamon, clove and sweet honey...Mmm!

I found this beautiful can in My favourite coffee shop, so now I can make my ice-chai whenever and wherever I want.

Me like that.

This morning I woke up from the sweet song on my cell, had the alarm on 09 and was kind in a hurry to get to my eye doctor... I hate going there.

She alwyas have this pitch when she talkes to me.

And I dont like it..at all.

I wear my lenses to often, I know that but it is so much easier to wear them rather then use my glasses.
So, its worth getting some rebuke I guess .

After Mrs Evil , Me and M took a breakfast downtown in the best café we have in this town.

The sun heated my face and skin and it almost felt líke summer again, sitting there early in the morning in just jeans and a top.

Coffee was great and I took a New baked piece of bread with ham and cheese, one orange and some lemon/cucumber water.

It may happend that I took a little walk in some shops also...

Found a really nice winter/fall jacket that I must have.

Short, thight and black with a belt in the waist and a cute fur-cap

Only 90$ ...a really bargain right?

And... I know i shouldn´t... but a girl must have a weakness.

My is perfumes.

So, i walked in to The Body Shop *love*

Saw one that got my attention.

This one was perfect for me.

A light yellow/orange bottle with a fragrance of peach, vanilla and Jasmin.

I am week... I know. But at least I stand up for it.

The visit at my grandfather was good.

Almost as a relief for Me.

He was awake, smiling, talking and it was not that bad as the doctors had said.

At least not that day.

I held his hand the whole time I was there, telling him that I loved him...

And he answered me right back.

That feeling right then..I can never describe.

But, he knows I love and care about him.

Thats the most important thing for me right now.

Later that evening we barberqued and had a calm night at my parents house.

My little brother came by also..Nice!

We went back to our town fairly late and had some wine and just relaxed...

Actually I got a foot massage that lasted forever..

Working weekends get to my back and feet, so I really appreciate that!

Today I have a day off from work so I gonna spend it with some cleaning first..then my lovley book (that i read 100 pages last night) and after that... Maybe some time at my laptop...Who knowes..maybe some interesting person there?

There usually is...