Att räkna ner en smula...

Att inse att man inte doftar Du längre.

Att sakna att bli väckt mitt i natten för att få en puss.

Att le varje gång man ser Ditt nummer på mobilen.

Att minnas de roliga sakerna Du säger bara sådär...

Att räkna ner dagarna tills Vi ses igen.

Att se fram emot sommaren i Ditt sällskap.

Att bära ett halsband som är Ditt.

3 dagar kvar.

Att vara tacksam för små saker...

Jag vet inte om Ni var uppe tidigt imorse?

Klockan var nog 06.40 när jag steg utanför dörrarna och möttes av det härligaste ljudet jag vet.

Fiskmåsarnas sång nere vid vattnet.

Härligt!

Nu är det bara sommarvärmen och en uteservering med mina kära som fattas.

Att säga hej då...

Om än bara för en liten stund.
Eller...denna gången 4 dagar, om allt går som jag vill.
4 dagar utan fina O.
Tur att dagarna är fyllda med saker att göra...
Möte på jobbet, springa längre än sist, dansa och ett program i stora staden med Jonas Gardell.
Hoppas jag kan gå...
Kommer bli mkt intressant.
Jag håller inte med honom i mkt, men respekterar hur han tänker.
Nu- gå till tåg.
Sen asiatiskt...

Att fördriva en fredagskväll...

Denna fredagskvällen stavas:

Ben & Jerry half baked

Let´s dance

Cola-cola ligt med krossad is och citronklyftor

En gosig katt sovandes på mina ben i soffan

Längtan tills imorgon...

Att tvivla en smula...

När den ena ger lite extra.

Eller den andra kanske inte känner likadant.

Eller någon som känner sig kluven.

När en har fjärilar i magen hela tiden.

Att ge sig själv tre timmar...

Är precis vad jag gjorde imorse.

10:00 - 13:00 satt jag och fick lite balsam både för själen och håret.

Ny klippning...som jag måste vänja mig vid en stund..mkt vax,sprayer och krusiduller som krävs.

Ny färg...

"Kaffebrun i grunden med inslag av lava och guld"

Ja, jag citerar Mia min frisör sen många år tillbaka.

Detta blir nog bra...när den största chocken lagt sig.

Nu hoppar jag till varje gång jag ser en spegel... och tittar en gång extra när jag passerar ett fönster i ögonhöjd.

Inter för att det e fult..nej då..bara väldigt ovanligt.

Varförär hår så extremt viktigt?

Jag vet inte hur mkt pengar jag lägger på hårprodukter varje månad...

Och det kanske är bra.

Det och parfymer är en mkt svag länk i E´s lilla värld.

Och ja, just det...det är SNÖ ute.

Morr

Att skriva en lista...

Surfade runt lite och hittade en lista...

En lång.

Passar bra för jag börjar bli lite rastlös...

Vad får du oftast komplimanger för- Att jag ler ofta.

Vad säger du för att imponera på någon- Berättar om mitt yrke :)

Hur imponerar man på dig- Man dansar bra.

Brukar du skratta för dig själv- Japp, det händer.

Vad står det i ditt senaste inkomna sms- När kan vi ses?

Var bor du- Västkusten.

Trivs du där- Nja, funkar ett tag till.

Äger du några Converse- Nix, inte riktigt min stil.

Sprit,cider,vin eller öl- Gärna en Cosmo eller iskall cider. Gillar vin oxå :)

Brukar du bli för full- Nej, vill kunna ha kontroll över vad jag gör.

Är du allergisk mot något- Champinjoner.

När mår du bra- på en uteservering/dansgolvet,saluhallar och utomlands.

Hur känner du dig nu- mätt.

Vanligaste färg på dina kläder- Svart,vitt & rosa

Vad tycker du om fötter- solbrända och målade kvinnofötter & babyfötter är okey.

Vad saknar du- Min älskade morfar som gick bort i höstas.

Favoritdryck på morgonen- Färskpressad apelsinjuice.

Rakar du benen- Varje gång jag duschar/vaxar på sommaren.

Är du blyg- Nej inte det minsta.

Sysslar du med någon sport- Dansar, simmar & har precis börjat springa.

Tror du på kärlek vid första ögonkastet- Nej, men passion.

Vad skulle du göra om du var kille för en dag- Flirta, ha sex och dricka öl kanske?

Är du nöjd med ditt liv- Mycket är bra & vissa saker ska ändras på...

Vad gör du imorgon- Jobbar, dansar och sen får vi se.

Vilken kändis är en bra förebild- Carolina Gynning är min husgud, så får svara henne.

Vad längtar du till- Sommarens resor med min fina vän S, hennes kille och fina O.

Hur gammal är du- 25 år.

Gröna eller röda äpplen- Gröna såklart.

Har du strumpor på dig nu- Japp, svarta strumpbyxor.

Är det okey att gråta- Självklart.

Vill du ha barn- Inte just nu men om ett par år kanske.

Är du vig- Ja rätt så faktiskt.

Vad dricker du helst när du är törstig- Ramlösa

Vilken är din favoritglass- Häagen Daaz och Ben & Jerry

Tror du på ett liv efter döden- Jag är kristen så: Ja.

Vad tycker du om sushi- En av mina absoluta favorit-rätter.

Vad äter du helst när du ser på film- Fruktsallad och vaniljkesella.

Är du morgon eller kvällsmänniska- Hmm..kvällsmänniska tror jag.

Vilken ögonfärg har du- Ljusblåa.

Biter du på naglarna- Har akryl, så det går inte längre.

Röker du- Kan ta en cigg om jag är ute och dansar/ sippar på ett glas vitt på en uteservering.

Gillar du någon just nu- Ja väldigt mycket.

Senaste låt du lyssnade på- Halo med Beyonce

Att hitta det man vill...

Det är svårt att sitta inne när det är så vackert väder.

Solen värmer faktiskt kinden på mig när jag skriver detta.

Genom fönstret såklart...men ändå.

Tog en liten tripp ner på stan.

Lilla stora staden...

Det mesta finns här men ändå känns det inte helt rätt.

Den större staden lockar några minuter varje dag.

Fick tag på det jag ville - en stor bukett med rosa tulpaner.

Ja... de vita var slut.

Inte bara jag som vill ha vitt, vitt & vitt omkring mig.

Om man skulle ta och tvätta alla fönstren idag?

Men det är inte enkla fönster i denna lägenhets-länga.

Nej då, för att tvätta ett fönster så måste man trixa och fixa och vips, så blir ett fönster plötsligt 4 rutor att skura och torka.

Jag kör den gamla stilen jag.

Yes, varmt vatten och tidningspapper.

Tvärt emot vad min mamma säger.

Mammor vet inte alltid bäst...

Att börja om...

På nytt.

En ny adress & ett nytt språk.

En bit ifrån nyfikna ögon som granskar för hårt.

Tog med mina gamla inlägg, för Er nya att läsa om Ni är nyfikna.

Och för att allt som hänt innan är en del av Mig.

Solen lyser in genom vita skira gardiner, fönstren är öppna för att fånga doften av vår och en te-kopp står vid min sida och väntar...

Detta kommer bli en bra dag.

Någon som betyder mycket kommer hit.

New place

Thought about ending this.

The Blog I mean.

But, its quite reveling to let everything out sometimes.

So, I will continue..but on a new address.

Away from some eyes and minds.

Still Me, simple and clean.

Still E.

Want the new address?

Just write me.

Good night sweet readers and sleep tight.

Why is that...

That some days goes by so very fast...and others nice and slow?

This weekend was to fast.

My heart didnt follow.

My soul tried to suck everythng in, and I hope it will last for a while.

No piglets...but a walk in the park and some horses, pinguins and goats anyone?

Sushi downtown & in the sun.

With one leg under me and one leaning against the quay, it was the perfekt place for sushi.

And we will give it anothe try....I hope.

Sunday night and right now I hate it.

It will be better... soon.

At least I have the necklace.

Once more...

" Det regnar alltid på söndagar.."

Maybe...

It will be " Piglets day" today...

I will google it

:-)

Almost friday

Only for me

I am proud with myself tonight.

Was longing for my dance-class and had alot of energy in my body.

At the dance-hall I soon realiced it was canceled.

So, I took my black and pink clothes, some gloves and my MP3 and did what?

Run.

Maybe not a marathon... but I did run.

For almost one hour.... walked, run..walked and run.

Perfect scent in the air and not that much people out.

It was almost my first time and I must say it did go better then I had thought.

So, I hope I will last even longer the next time.

Good work E.

Its finally here

The sun

The clear blue sky

The wind who caress your cheeks and leaves a warm feeling

The summer-thoughts

And the smile on everyones faces when its okey to have a coffee down town in the sun.

Cus suddenly, its normal to bring your cup outside...to wear a lighter jacket and maybe to lean the face to the sun...just for a while...

Thank You for a spring-kind-of day and the summer-teaser.

E like this

*Sigh*

My thoughts about letting wendesday be a sleep-as-long-as-you-want kind of day failed.

8:00 I was more awake then ever.

Went up, shower to the tunes of MTV and just practiced some of my dance moves.

I am sooo longing for friday.

A night on the cinema with cute S.

The movie that we will watch?

"Confessions of a Shopaholic"

It will be good for sure.

With a soda and a lollipop it will be even better.

Now- scrambled eggs and juice.

The colour of E

Look what I found!

Yes sweet readers, its pink, pretty and perfect!

And, the best thing of all- it will be mine next week.

Thank you very much.

You´re welcome honey...

A question about right or wrong?

I can admit that some of my comments here are shallow and superficial.

But My life is sometimes just that.

That is not all me of course and You who knows me for real knows also I care about religion and those types of issues.

When I read other peoples blogs and they write something about: Is it okey to wear a hijab?

I get frustrated for real.

Cus its the same to ask me: Is it okey to wear a shirt?

Why must it be okey or not okey...

Why cant people wear what they want and other people just accept that?

Why are we...sweeds in particular, so unbelievably narrow-mindedly.

Are we afraid of other peoples way to think?

Their different traditions or habbits?

A veil or hijab will not change anothers attitude for you, neither will it tell you anything important.

You cant see a person through a veil.

Not her taste in music, food or her favoutite book.

Neither if she is more religious then you are.

Some wear veils for a tradition...some cus the forcement of others...and some actually wear it cus the obedience of Allah, God, or whatever You will call Him.

The point is: The more you ask the question, the more of intolerance and racism there will be.

So, think outside the box, be kind to strangers and why not take a glance in the viewpoint of others?

Cus who knows...maybe You learn something.

Here is a beautiful song that makes me smile...

And yes, its a muslim one... oh My!

:-)

And, for you sweet readers who dont know me... No, I am not a muslim.

I am a christan protestant and I go to church when I have the time...and I pray.

But, I have the ability to see one step further...and try not to judge.

Cus, who are You to tell or think what other people should wear?

Its something...

Its something about football players...

I dont know if its in their clothes, they way to move or the cocky attitude that makes me attracted.

I never watch a game or neither am I interested...

But... there is something about them.

Maybe I should call mrs. Beckham and ask her about this?

I´m thinking about having one of my own.

Bellydancer vs Footballplayer equals... ?

Thank You

A slow sunday and monday and I am grateful for that.
When my inside is tearing apart its good to know I have You.
Thank You.
A before sleep song

Early morning

And its sunday.

Yeeey!

What else can I do...

But smile...

Good night people and sweet dreams!

If I could...

If I could see your Blue ones that turn in to green in the night.

I would be happy.

After a day in hell...why not a afternoon in heaven?

My working-day in a few words: Terrible, stressful and to long.

Thank God sweet S came by and said hello.

Its awful to work with H.

She is a she-devil I am sure.

Guest that swor at me and a full kitchen with girls...

New ones that was there to learn and some that had been there before.

Its my passion to cook but even though some guest told me I always smile and make good food, it was no fun today.

To much of everything.

So...how did E solve this?

A little walk down town of course.

And I found as You can see above- Ben & Jerry, juice and some chocolate.

Now it will be a hot bath and then some time with my book.

I did some shoping online yesterday..and found my Guru.

My house God- Carolina Gynning´s first book Ego Girl.

So, guess I will have that one in my mailbox in a couple of days.

Sweet.

Uuuuh

A night before that should be good...

Fresh seafood, wine and Ben&Jerry.

Well... movie sucked (haha..yes O)

And I felt weird...

Fell alseep way before I use to.

With a thought about that thing S had.

I hope not...

Will eat 10 oranges today and just survive the fuck up day this will be.

And, I talk to you sweet readers after that..okey?

This new mix is stuck in this head of mine

The "right before sleep kind of words"...

The scent is still here.

Tomorrow it will be gone... but I have a feeling I will have it back soon.

Still scared about this.

All this...in my head and soul.

But, I guess I will figure this out also..like all other things lately.

I need some things to be simple in this world of chaos right now.

And O is simple.

Workday tomorrow and then weekend.

Not with joy this time...

A weekend without sweet S at work...

And no big city either.

*sigh*

Words from a boy...

"Du glömde ditt läpp-mums här..."

Cute

Status update

Wearing: Underwear

Drinking: Icetea

Feeling: mixed up, scared and longing

A day filled with beauty

A very early sms that said good morning was the first to make me smile today.

After that, the day just flew by.

Slow and easy at work...

Sweet P came by and brought me a gift.

Thank You my dear.

Had a appointment in the hair-salon to pick my eyebrows.

I am such a baby when it comes to that...

Wax my legs- no problems.

Getting a tattoo- been there done that...

But, getting my little tiny hair picked...is like hell.

The cute girl in the chair next to me just whispered; Girl, are you crazy??

-Letting another person pick ur eyebrows???

That is pain!!

Hahaha...

I tried to sound calm... but, it came out (while the tears fell on my cheek)

Its...its..o..o..okey... I can handle it!

Well, 10 minuts of pain is worth it.

After that...the other salon and cute M.

New nails with a golden shimmer/kind of thing.

Very nice and thank you for that.

My other little P came and said hello...and we took a chai-latte down town and just where...

We can do that.

Just be for a while...

Secrets and laugher is our thing.

Tomorrow is almost here now.

Goodie.

Now- a hot bath, and after that- sushi.

Just another monday...

What should I do to be only me again.

Not someone to another.

Just me, plain E.

I am trying to figure that one out...and it goes pretty well.

Weekend was awesome.

A few days for the soul.

This one I sing to and with all day

One step at a time

There's no need to rush

It's like learning to fly

Or falling in love

It's gonna happen and it's

Supposed to happen that we

Find the reasons why

One step at a time

Like someone use to say...

"Det regnar alltid på söndagar..."

With a smile...

I was promissed 50.

He gave me 100...

Can a feeling like this be wrong and can this smile be fake?

Dont think so.

The cheeky smile just before a kiss on the cheek...or the hands on my neck while I am talking.

The nodding while I am telling a story, eyes that look like they really do listen.

I like this, this thing right now.

And when I like...I keep.

Good night sweet readers and have a me-ful of dreams

A little song to get You in to sleep?

The one for You...

Remember those walls I built

Well Baby they are tumbling down

And they didn’t even put up a fight

They didn’t even make a sound

I found a way to let you in

But I never really had a doubt

Standing in the light of your halo

I got my angel now

Copycat of today...

My favourite flower and the best colour.

Long day at work yesterday... 13 hours.

Today?

Well...evening, and just 8 of them.

Longing for tomorrow..and the weekend.

It will be good.

Now I have some things to take care of down town...

See You tonight sweet readers!

Ciao

A phonecall...

"I miss You"

Just what I wanted to hear today.

Thank You.

How was that song again...

"Mars, April har knopp i håret..."

Oh I hope so, give me spring.

Atkins style

Soft clothes is a must before I even think about getting the day started,

Baby-blue hotpants and a pink sweatshirt it is.
Breakfast is ready and todays menu was scrambled eggs with green peas and crabsticks, a glass of orange juice and half of a mango.

Why is it, that I prefere to eat breakfast (or any meal) in a bowl..rather on a plate?

It taste better in a bowl.

Thought about a coffee (tea) down town but got a No from sweet S- the baby sitter of today.

Well, I can entertain my self I guess...

Hmm.

Maybe a walk around the woods...You know that place that is so close to the city, but still have that country feeling to it?

Maybe I get to see some horses.

Yeey, Lets do that!

After breakfast...

Something or someone was missing next to me when I woke up.

I have to figure that out.

Over and out

If I could choose...

This one next time?
And two spoons.

Cards on the table...

A weekend with white sparkling wine, candy, haegen daaz and fruitsallad.

In gothenburg and with O.

It was supposed to be reggaeton but things changed and even if I wanted to dance my troubles away, this was probably a better way to spend it.

A replay on Slumdog, a beating up in playstation (yes sweet readers, the girl beat the boy) and as O putted it; awsome.

I need to be me for a while...

Not a friend, sister, wife or a associate.

Just me...plain and simple E.

Cus, when things really comes around...I am just that.

This song is on my speakers right now.

Now- close the blue ones and dream sweet.

A day off tomorrow...yes we DO like that.