A night of Cava

A night that would be dancing and drinks of rum...

Suddenly became a night of movie, Cava and laughter.

A night with O.

I can do that.

Behave tonight people and cheers!

Sen en tid tillbaka...

Sen en tid tillbaka har jag varit trött

Försökt att vara allt på samma gång

Så mycket man kan göra och borde och vill

Mitt i allt så ska man räcka till

Sen en tid tillbaka har jag varit tom

Och försökt att hitta spår som leder rätt

Ja det finns så mycket måsten att vara bra på det man kan

Och mitt i allt så ska man vara sann

Sen en tid tillbaka har jag känt mig svag

Och försökt att vara nån till lags

Ja man kämpar för en plats som passar både här och där

Och snart har man glömt vem man är

Sen en tid tillbaka har jag tänkt såhär

Och insett att jag måste börja om

Ja jag har kämpat för en plats som passar både här och där

Men snart ska jag hitta den jag är

//Melissa Horn

Look what I found

So damn good.

Cottage cheese with apple,pear and vanilla.

Perfect after a day at work!

People tell me I am as far from vanilla as it can be, but...

Its pretty good to have sometimes.

Simle and clean.

A day with dancing and O

Okey.

I dont have the time or longing for feeling like this-so I will block it out for now.

Today was a good day.

A trip to the big city and a tea for two with O.

He was like a scent of spring.

Lively, cheerfull, cheaky and witrh a smile.

Thank You for a fun day and I hope it was not the last?

On the way home in the train This was on my walkman.

Fast fruitsallad before the dance class.

And Oh my God.

We danced, moved those hips and bounced to the floor.

This one was very popular...so we took the steps twice!

This day started good...so I will end it good.

With sushi and a msn-talk to cute O.

Good night people

...

One e-mail that made me fall.

Deep down..as far as you can go.

I said that I would not write about it, and I wont.

Just that I never thought this.

And this is just not fair.

Ok sweet P

This is the new jeans I found.

Wich one should I take?

Darkblue above..or lighter down below?

Something sweet for the soul

It may happend I had one of these today.

And it was good.

I wonder if it will set on my hips untill tomorrows dance?

Yada yada

A glance from yesterday

Just a little something from yesterdays breakfast down town with S.

Tuna-salad, sparkling water and tea.

And our legs.

To my sweet P

Tried to coment on your blog but it did not work.

Breath in and out.

Take a cup of tea,eat some chocolate and drink that glass of cava (its good for a mothers-heart)

Try to think less and rinse your soul a little bit.

You know, our little weekend to the south will come sooner then You think.

This is a song I´ve heard today...

So beautiful and different.

Its for You sweet readers!

A different kind of affair...

Having the tv on while I am reading.

My mind stops for a second, my hands falls and the book have to wait... and I watch.

A love-affair.

But...not like it use to be.

A man loves his car.

So much that He has sex with it.

Hmm...

I think I am pretty open-minded.

As long as You keep away from children, animals and family.

But cars?

I have to think about this.

The bathtub is ready, the bubbles also and a new fashion-magazine.

I´ll be back with my decision.

A lovestory

Aaaaw...

I knew this would be hard.

I worked all afternoon and evening so I kind of missed out the live-show from the castle and

the wedding to come.

But, as soon as I walked (run) in to my livingroom it was : laptop and lovely internet.

Oooh..

When the Queen held her speach to the people I shared a tear.

Yes yes..I knoooow.

I am so weak....

But it was beautiful.

She has a way to express herself.

Kind and loving, but still with respect.

Victoria looked so sparkling happy and Daniel

(the new prince to be and Duke over Västergötland)

nervous in a cute kind of way.

This will be good!

*yeeeey*

A scent of wedding in the air...

Oh I have waited for this.

A wedding.

A princess and a man of the people.

The princess of Sweden and her boyfriend, a "ordinary guy" is becoming engaged today.

And that means a wedding next year I guess.

Can You image what dresses she can choose from?

Dior, Oscar de la lenta or maybe Yves saint laurent...

A bouquet of flowers with white roses, pearls and silk-ribbons.

Champagne and luxury...

Yes I will watch the live tv-show.

I will be sitting and day-dreaming with a cheeky smile all day and night.

Kind of have to take that day off I guess.

Congrats Victoria and Daniel!

A day off...

This day has been a lovely mixture of a lunch downtown with sweet S, some cleaning in the apartment, book-reading, panic over S who left me weird messenges and I thought for a sec or two something awful had happend. (she is alive though...)

Been searching online for some new clothes..and think I manage to collect a little something.

To those warm days.

When its okey to take a glass of red before dinner...

For those days when You can walk bare-foot in the grass.

Yes- for the summer

Barcelona goes E-style

What do You think sweet P?

And the winner is...

Slumdog Millionaire got 8 Oscars for:

Best Motion Picture of the Year

Achievement in Directing: Danny Boyle

Adapted Screenplay: Simon Beaufoi

Achievement in Cinematography: Anthony Dod Mantle

Achievement in Film Editing: Chris Dickens

Achievement in Music Written for Motion Pictures (Original Score): A.R. Rahman

Achievement in Music Written for Motion Pictures (Original Song): "Jai Ho" - A.R. Rahman and Gulzar

Achievement in Sound Mixing: Ian Tapp, Richard Pryke and Resul Pookutty

And that people, is pretty cool.

Its something about hollywood goes bollywood.

I love it and I loved that movie.

A poem in the night...

When your times are filled with troubles
Sadness, grief, or even doubt,
When all those things you planned on
Just aren't turning out.

Just turn and look behind you
From the place at which you stand,
And look for me through the shadows
And reach out for my hand

I will lift from you your burden
And cry for you your tears,
Bear the pain of all your sorrows
Though it may be for a thousand years.

For in the end I would be happy
To have helped you start a new,
It's a small price to pay
For the gift of knowing you.

A silly beaver

Its funny how small things can make me smile.

Tonight it was a game with a beaver.

Two acctully.

Thank You O for making me forget the "before feeling".

How can a stranger do that?

Well...the net is a good start.

And me like strangers sometimes.

A song for You then.

This lyrics is very true.

Its so easy to forget yourself.

To try to be everywhere and to know everything.

But, then its easy to loose you.

And to be true.

Now its that time again..the bed and pillow.

Sleep tight and have sweet dreams about summer, white beaches and a sun that never stops shining.

A honest blog?

I wonder how honest and true I should be on this blog.

Do I write this for myself or others?

I write for me only, but its fun to know that other reads my thoughts.

Today I got really hurt.

That is not very common.

I can take critique if I have deserved it.

This was just mean and without any reason.

When someone I care about and thought had a good heart say those things to me, I get sad.

So...what to do?

Well.

Dont know yet.

I lost a little bit of my pride there and dont think I´ve had that situation before...

I will listen to P´s advise; go easy and slow.

Cus she is older and clever, yeah...we listen to her today.

And..that top-floor with a pool in Barcelona... I say yes to that one ;)

Soon E...soon.

Its time...

Its time to close My blue ones.

To brush my teeth.

Lay in bed and lean the head to a soft pillow.

To hear the low tune of a song that calms.

Its time to sleep.

Snow...

It didnt make a different.

The applegreen curtains, the white tablecloth and the big bouquet with fresh spring-flowers.

The new pillows in the sofa...calm colours and with a May-feeling.

Its still snowing.

The winter is still holding its grip around me.

Hmm...

Dont really know what more I can do.

The indians have a dance for rain.

I wonder it there is a dance for making the spring comes faster?

Cus if there is, I can dance for days.

Went to parents house earlier today, mum called and; Hey sweety...I make dinner if You bring dessert.

No problem, desserts is what I do.

Blueberry pie with vanilla ice cream.

On my way home I saw something awful at the highway.

One car lost the control and went over to the wrong side...

I prayed a thank You to the Man up there that it was not me.

Drive safe people.

Its really not worth crashing your car, just so You save a minut or two.

I wonder...

"How do You put words into a man"

Yesterday are still here...

Yes people.

The movments from yesterday is reminding me in more than one way today.

In my head and inside...making my hips hurt when I walk.

Feels good.

Its hard to remember all the steps and poses.

But, when the music flows out from my speakers its just to go with the flow.

A day at work- only girls and no boss.

A dream come true?

Yeah.

Bubblebath at home and a big plate with fruit was very E today.

A new someone...we can call him P..like in the animal..or maybe O, like in his name?

Hmm..I go with the O...

He told me about a movie yesterday and I had time to watch it tonight.

Awsome.

Step Up 1.

Maybe a little bit predictable, but doesnt matter when ther actors are good.

So, thank You for the tip O, and...I guess there will be a sequel at your place then huh?

Here is a song before its: Nighty nighty.

//E

Awsome...

Tonight was the first lesson in my Oriential belly-dance class.

Got my new clothes on and a positive attitude.

Brand new dance premesis, I could even smell the scent of paint.

Mirrors everywhere in the room.

Like alwyas I was the last girl in.

Haha...

Not the youngest but not the oldest either.

The teacher said hello..and asked us if we would be disappointed if we mixed the bellydance with reggaeton.

Ohh..yeeey!

Reggaeton is the second name of E.

And I danced...and moved those hips, followed her every step.

After 15 min we all looked at eachother with a glance of; oh my...this will be tough.

Perfect.

Three more months.

This is an example of what I danced to...

Her words are like magic...

I follow a blog.

The owner of the blog is a woman, a second lady as she calles herself.

The love of her life is taken.

Married.

She writes about their moments.

Stolen glances.

And You can think whatever You want about the things she or he does.

But the way that she write is magic.

She use words like chipped, thin coating of ice or "like when the springs come, or when the lights go on in your stairwell late at night"...

I can read it over and over.

And one part of me wants them to be together, cus if they are...her words will never end.

Day-dreaming...

Is it called day dreaming..even if You dream on the evening?

My scarf smells like C.

I wanna have that scent around me more often.

How?

On my fridge-door

On my high-tech fridge there is not many things.

Just one postcard from my sweet P.

Wishing me a good "the day after".

A picture from sweet S, telling me she likes me.

And, one thing that I printed out.

Something I see everyday and at least try to follow.

Its Life-instructions.

And, here they come for You to read.

* Give people more then they deserve and do it cus You like it

* Dont believe everything You hear, dont spend everything You get and dont sleep as much as You want to.

* When You say "I love You", mean it.

* Believe in love at first sight.

* Dont insult.

* Talk slow but think fast.

* Say "bless you" when someone sneezes.

* When You discover You have done wrong, correct it right away.

* Spend some time alone.

* Open Your heart for changes but dont let go of Your values.

* Remeber, sometimes silence is the right answer.

* Live a good and worthy life.

* When You get old, remember the past cus then You can enjoy it a second time.

* Have faith and trust in people, but lock your car.

* Share everything You know, its a way to reach immortality

* Once a year, go to a place You have never been.

* If You make alot of money, spend them so You help others while they still are alive.

* Learn all the rules, breake some of them.

* Approach the kitchen with love and audacity.

E goes farmer-girl?

After a long day in bed and a quick breakfast I had this craving.

Not for something to eat or drink.

No sir.

I wanted some country-air in my lungs.

So, I went to a little farm nearby and what did I found?

Piglets, horses, chickens, goats and rabbits.

Yeeey.

A paradise for E.

My hair smells like hay.

My hands tar and straw.

I love that scent.

Like I have been in the stable all day, groomed horses.

A hot cup of chocolate after that and then to the store to get some dinner-supplies for tonight.

Roasted pork, stuffed with garlic and rosemary.

Dessert: Applepie with vanilla icecream

Sweet angel vs laundry

After I had sorted the big pile of laundry, layed them in different bags and go out to get some changes for the mashines...

I see that someone had taken my washing-time.

Grrr...

So, I sat down, crossed legs on the mashine and started to read my book.

After a while the girl came sneaking in.

And, it was now the sweet swedish girl felt tiny horns growing out from her forehead.

-Hi, I wonder if you cant read or if you take others washingtime on purpose?

You wanna hear the answer?

-Oh..eh..well, I am sorry..I just gave birth.

Que?

Haha.. Okey, I did not know giving birth was equal to be sneaky.

Well, I did not go further into that and I could go on with my laundry.

Haha..and more exciting than that I doubt it will be today sweet readers.

Some pics...

Just some pics from valentines-night.

Me, seafood, wine.

And some other peple I keep secret.

Now: laying in the sofa

On the table: Sushi and a sparkling glass of Cava. (Thanxs P)

Mood: Tired but relaxed

On the flatscreen: Top Model

Valentines Day

A day to show your loved ones you care and love them.
But, what to do when one person is missing?
Well...You do the best You can and I did something like this:
A day at work that seemed to never be over.
Some new nails with a cute twist at Maries salon.
And...sweet readers, the best thing I saved for last.
Drove on snow covered roads in what seemed like in the middle of nowhere.
The sea that is so light blue in July was dark and hard.
A 3 course dinner at M´s place.
Many laughs and one or 4 glasses of my favourite white wine.
Thank you sweet M for making it perfect.
Spend the late night at my parents house...
Had to sneak in and gently tip-toe into bed.
The best thing about coming back to my parents house is this...
Breakfast is served...
Father is like a waiter on me...
Calling me honey and trying to make 100 different things for me to eat.
Mother is angry when I am trying to help her with dinner,,.haha
-Please E,,, dont work. lay in the sofa...let me do it.
So...now I do as she says ( sitting in my old girl-room and write on this blog)
Will take a walk later on..but God its freezing here.
Minus 12 degrees.
That is about 30 deegres below what I want.
I need the spring to come.
The snow to melt.
The birds to wake me up by their song on the mornings and the sun to warm my face in bed.
I live in the wrong country, I know.
So, I put my faith in C.

And my angel P, thank you for giving me that cute valentines gift!

I wonder...

It feels empty.

I was so longing for that offer I´ve got.

Things change...this is life, our life and I know that.

I cant help but wonder thought...How hard will this be?

I can do difficult and tough.

I really can.

But only if I know the details.

The dates, rules and some glances of the future.

I wonder if Coskun is a Mr Big.

You girls know exactly who I am talking about...

I dont know if its a bad or good thing.

But something about him makes me wonder...

And if he is Mr Big, am I a Carrie?

Always saw myself as a mixture of Samantha and Charlotte.

Or, is Carrie just that?

A lovely mix?

What a shitty day...

Mood: Angry and tired

Listen to: Green Day - She´s a rebel

I got a Challenge...

Okey, got a challenge from cute S and here are the rules:

(I got this on swedish so I try to make a translation)

The Person who gets this will write 8 facts about her/himself.

In the end of this challenge You will write 8 names that You challenge to to the same.

The different I will do is that You can write Your facts on my coments below.

Cus I know not all of you who reads this has a blog.

Okey...lets begin!

* When I was young I was really scared of Santa.

* If I could choose a superpower, I had wanted to be able to fly everywhere I wanted in just a couple of seconds.

* I spend a little to much money on perfumes and beauty-related things :)

* I would love to have a hunting-degree one day and my own little dog to come along with me in the woods. His name would be Bellman :)

* I wanna live abroad for a while before turning 30.

* My favourite thing to drink is Champagne.

* I love to dance and my oriential belly-dance class begins Feb 19:th.

* I want 3 kids and have allready named them :)

So sweet readers... I think I will challenge :

Petra, Therese, Malin, Anders, Alvaro, Sisu, Marie and Coskun.

Dont be shy now people!

Breakfast in bed

Scrambled eggs with tomato, chili and cumin.

Thats a breakfast E-style.

Late workingday today...so, why not eating in bed?

I wonder if sweet P working today...

Mammoth and strawberry-lollipop

Going to the cinema with A.

Mammoth by Lukas Moodysson.

And like always E need a strawberry lollipop and sparkling water as a companion.

Nothing more and nothing less.

Simple girl :)

Be back late this evening..

And I know what is waiting for me!

Yeeey

And my thoughts fly away again...

I just read Petras blog...

She has a clever thing, a whole new closet..for Barcelona only.

New shoes,bags and jewelry.

Just open the door and image...Una copa de vino, obra de arte y ser hermano...

Maravilloso!

She is clever sweet P.

I need to make a closet like that.

Now.

Pronto pronto...

Not again E...

Oh yes E.

I did kind of buy a little something...

Well, talked to Coskun who where still in Cyprus and he had to go...

If you leave a girl in the middle of the night she will find a way to comfort herself.

E does this at the many different online beauty-shops.

And she does it good.

So, one repair shampoo from Lóreal Expert for my type of hair.

I had it before and I know its like balm for the soul (hair).

So, thank you sweet C for making me shop untill I drop.

Now- good night my lovely readers!

What I do best...

Tonight I have something in the owen I will make for C one day.

Something tells me he will like this.

Gino.

Mixed fruit or berries... I took:

Mango

Raspberry

Blueberries

Pear

Pineapple

Slice the fruit up...put it in a baking-tin and spread alot of white chocolate over it.

In the owen, 200 degrees for 15 min.

Serve with vanilla ice cream.

Sounds pretty good huh?

I knooow

A afternoon for my soul...

Morning in church.
We sang My favourite psalm, the one I will have the day I baptise my children.
Coffee downtown with a newspaper.
Quiet and smooth.
Just like I want it.
Went home, change of clothes and a new mixed cd for the car.
Went to grandfathers grave with new candles and a wish that He is okey up there and that He is missed.
A talk without tears, but with a calm inside me.
Dinner at parents house and now a cup of tea, my mother shouts...
Well..better go then :)
And hey, have a great sunday sweet readers...just like me.

What did I do to deserve this?

It seems like starting the car-alarm and fuck up the doorlock was not enough.

Nooo...

I managed to breake the zipper to my high black boots also.

Grrr...

What kind of day is this?

I poured up a glass of cabernet sauvignon in my biggest wineglass.

Tomorrow is church-time.

But now...just lean back in the sofa....breath in..and out.

What a day!

This day started with me getting the alarm start beeping in the car.

I also fucked up the driver doorlock.

Haha...so now, if you wanna get inside, you have to open the passengerdoor first.

Oh, I hate cars.

And they obviously hate me.

I also did some grown-up decision, and that made me proud over myself.

I am greater,smarter and more loving then J ...

Karma is the thing.

Last night was great..even if I just had 40 min to get ready.

Haha, never have the flatironer and makeup worked so hard.

Me, 6 other ladies and 3 gentlemen went to the pre-thing Eurovision song contest.

Big studio, great songs and alot of cameras in the air.

On our way back home I was glad to have S´s shoulder to sleep on.

Here is some pics from last night