Yeeeey

Drinking a breezer while doing the make up.

Spraying my hair while I am trying to get the stockings on.

Talking on the phone while brushing my teeth.

This will be a lovely night!

Yeeeah

What do we have here...

I felt a craving sneaking up on me...

After dinner,,,as I lay on the bed reading about India and philosophy.

Hmm..what was it?

Salt?

Sour... or chocolate?

Mixed candy!

Took a little trip to my wardrobe and found a couple of (new?) jeans.

Never worn.

Dark blue, slim fit.

Hmm...

Does this means I have to much clothes...or a to small wardrobe?

Very well...got dressed, fixed my hair (spray spray and spray) and a quick glance in the mirror.

This was what I found.

I caaaan... cus its friday...and..I am a girl...and..well..I need!

And believe me sweet readers, I will dance it off tomorrow!

Looonging.

Slightly change of planes...

The plan was: long day in bed cus I have a day off.

Reality: Sweet P calls..before 09... aaaah

-Hello sweet E... are you working?

Me- uuh... huh? No.. :)

She- Ops.. well, I am making the reservations for Barcelona.

And I wonder, do we wanna get on first on the plane?

Me- Of course, then we have time for more drinks :)

She- yes!

Yep...and now I cant go back to sleap.

I wanna pack my little pink bag with skirts and shoes and just leave to where the sun is.

Where we can drink heavy red wine and eat pasta.

Look at the art-gallery and flirt with cute Barcelona-guys.

Yeeeey.

But I must say...if i could choose.

I rather be woken up by P´s sweet voice then the alarm :)

So...what to do now?

Laundery time is soon...

Then I´m gonna make a kind of New Orleans Chicken to dinner.

Then maybe a movie in Gothenburg?

Me and my new hair...

Nice huh?

Perfect colour to my extensions.

You´re the best sweet S!

Lightbrown with a splash of vailla...

This is some of the things I bought earlier today.

H&M is very kind to the wallet and have alot to choose from.

Sweet S coloured my hair and it became very good...as always.

Thank you my dear friend!

Now we will be nice and sexy on saturday...

And oooh what I am longing!

Dinner out, good music all night (or untill we cant keep our blue ones up)

A very careful planned outfit, perfect hair and make-up and my finest bling bling.

And a nice, warm bed to get back to in the early morning.

Breakfast (dinner) down town on sunday.

Then the train back home.

Sounds perfect to me...

And there she goes...

Worked

Some wonderful Barcelona-talk with sweet P

Took the car to the inspection (no problem there of course)

Run into the mall... yes, i did buy some things.

Did some quick dinner...

And now I am off to cute S.

New haircolour.

The cost?

"Your hands on my body"- she told me... a hot dream for you guys?

No... Just a massage- E style!

I will write some more when I get back home.

See ya!

Tonights shoppingbag includes...

Will be perfect in my dance-class this spring.

Yummie yummie

A day off means I can do what I do at work... but in my own kitchen.

And use what spices I like and make it hoooot.

I can also have my music on..high.

Today I did shish kebab with alot of chili and garlic.

Couscous with lime and parsly.

And a yohhurt sauce to keep the heat down a bit.

And man, did it taste good...

Its gonna be great as dinner tonight.

Now I must run down town to take care of a few things.

After that, a little trip with the car to the town nearby.

What a beautiful song...

Lay down your head and I'll sing you a lullaby

Back to the years of loo-li lai-lay

And I'll sing you to sleep and I'll sing you tomorrow

Bless you with love for the road that you go

May you sail far to the far fields of fortune

With diamonds and pearls at your head and your feet

And may you need never to banish misfortune

May you find kindness in all that you meet

May there always be angels to watch over you

To guide you each step of the way

To guard you and keep you safe from all harm

Loo-li, loo-li, lai-lay

May you bring love and may you bring happiness

Be loved in return to the end of your days

Now fall off to sleep, I'm not meaning to keep you

I'll just sit for a while and sing loo-li, lai-lay

I thought about to who I would dedicate it to...

Who is in the most need of an guardian angel?

Of some happiness and love...

Well, it must be C.

And thank you sweet P for sharing this.

It was truly one of the most beautiful song I´ve heard.

Cant sleep...

I dont really have to...

But, no one fun online...and nothing on the flatscreen either.

So, I took a cup of red tea...leaned my head at the balcony window and looked out down town.

Dead.

Sometimes..or, quite often, I wish I had been living in New York, London or Paris.

Where the city never goes dead.

Lights from cars, sound from bars and people..strangers walking up and down the streets.

And me, looking down on them from my fabulous apartment.

Top floor of course.

And I would have a cat, a white one...very expensive.

White walls, old wood-floor and shabby-chic furnishing.

A black french stowe with gas.

The fridge filled with fish, vegs and champagne.

Several Häagen Dazs, waiting to get eaten.

The neighbours would not really know where to place me...

You know.. I am a little bit of a celebrety there..

And now I get carried away...

Go to sleep E...for Gods sake.

Is Lady Spring here?

Cus I am quite sure I felt that spring scent in the air as I walked home from work.

-" You always have a smile on your face" - a guest told me today.

Thank you.

That made that next hour so much easier to do...

After a shower and some dinner I had a special game in mind.

Partner in crime?

C of course... if he is awake... we will see.

Good night to the rest of you.

Hahaha...

This is sweet P today..infront of the computer.

-No no no no.. my eyes! my eyes!

Oh my God what I have laughed today...that image is stuck in my head.

Thank you for making me smile..and I am very sorry if you saw something that shocked you.

*smile*

Breakfast infront of Oprah...

Yes people.

A pile of fresh oranges, some toast and a big cup of chai on the white, slightly chipped tv-table.

I just rememberd, I have seen MANY movies the last week, as the movie-nerd I am.

So, maybe a quick review?

Changelin with Angelina Jolie - A beautiful movie based on a true story.

Never have a I felt a tear on a movie that was so honest.

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button - A 3 hours long movie that amazed me.

Prad Pitt in a weird and sad story there he is born old...and as he grown become younger.

XIII - Usa, president gets killed and cute guy loose his memory.

Good movie and a clever story.

Revolutionary road - Leonardo Di Caprio and Kate winslet is back.

A romantic drama about how we see life.

And why we have to live it like everyone else.

Make it count...

Make your voice heard.

Join Amnesty International !

I did...and I know it makes a different...

So, use your head and do the same.

Children in the middle-east will thank you, just like people in prison in Burma, or the

children in Libera who saw their mothers get raped and killed.

Get out of that little bubble that most of you are in and make me proud!

Chefs on tv and sparkling-water

A chef kind of thing on the flat screen.

One glass of sparkling water next to me.

A fresh bouquet of flowers on the table- Thank you M.

Tired blue ones...

And E on the sofa, crossed legs and with the laptop on her knees.

Lovely laptop

A afternoon at E´s place is something like this right now:

Me standing in the kitchen... wearing a pink top and hotpants.

Like always when I am cooking at home, I have some music on.

High.

And always oriental...

sometimes Turkish ( Sagopa Kajmer ) sometimes Indian. ( Babydoll )

It gives me that feeling...that little something.

Stearing in 3 different saucepans and chopping some vegs.

Dinner tonight is Spaghetti Bolognese.

And like always, with a twist.

This time it means spice!

Chili, garlic...and a splash of cumin.

So, I am writing here to you sweet readers in my old fashion white and blue kitchen.

I love this laptop.It follows me everywhere I go.

Next destination is my bathroom- where the water is now running to the tub along with thousends of pink bubbles.

The laptop has it own place there...on a small table with a candle or two.

But, then its Tracy Chapman that is on...

Be grateful...

Just got back home from church.

A new priest, more young-hey-come-on-lets-sing kind of priest.

Is it okey to prefer the other one?

Well, between you and me... I do.

Maybe I am old fashion (Or, I know i am)

But... there is something about just sit and listen.

After 10 different songs and psalms I took the Communion and like always, it feels

like a stone is taken away from my shoulders.

Weird huh?

We took a little walk down town and had some breakfast..

And I kind of had trouble stopping the little voice inside me who said; SALE SALE SALE.

So, I bought some new tops and shirts.

It was sale people.. Give me a breake :)

Someone I care about just went single.

And I think he might be reading this so...

Sweet A, this song is for you.

And I know you will be just fine, and maybe this will

give you time to figure out what you need and wanna do?

Have a great sunday poeple!

Feel it...

A couple of yellow breezers and just in my underwears.

So longing for the dancefloor right now...You have no idea.

This on the speakers..high...or, at least so high the neighbours will allow.

What goes around...

Comes around...

If You dont play it smart...

To my friend...

Sweet P, when things get out of your hands and unfare.

Try to not spend all your energy on them.

Things will happend that we cant change.

Somethimes those things was ment to be, and open new doors.

I knew You will be just fine cus You are strong.

Try to focus on the good things you allready have, at home and in your life.

Cus you have a rich life... right?

Something to cheer you up my sweet friend

This always makes me feel a little bit better...

And so life goes on..

Picked up the phone and called the perfect restaurant for tonight.

-Table for 5 please.

Whats your name Miss?

-E xxx

Oh, you have a very beautiful name miss.

*E blushed*

-Oh, thank you.

You are very welcome, see you later.

Hehe... I love that place.

Flirty on the phone, handsome waiters and food to die for.

Turkish with a twist of greece.

See you later my sweet readers!

And, take a glass or two for me also tonight!

And, have fun, cus I know I will

Breath in...and slowly breath out.

I have always tried to be careful.

This time something happend when I really wasnt ready.

I thank God today, cus he heard my pray.

"Please, I beg for nothing but this..."

So, this night will be a night to celebrate ande I have learnt my lesson.

Think I deserve a bottle of red later...

//E

Early morning and a late night...

Early morning and tired as I could be.

When ther alarm started to sing next to me if felt like I had just gone to bed.

A quick hello to sweet C before I left, made it a little bit easier though.

I want the feeling back, like it was before.

When I got to work I had all the time in the world making the food for tonights gathering.

Fish, fish and more fish.

Had my little mini me next to me, asking me clever questions and watched my every move.

I like learing out what I know, when people are interested and listen.

This girl do and its fun to see how she develops every day.

With big eyes she look at how I chopped the vegs, did the sauces and how I tried to trick her in difficult questions in french kitchen language.

Got many compliments for my food and Me like kind and nice world after a very long day.

As I walked home in the chilly and ice covered streets, I got that longing feeling for summer and heat.

Lucky me there is a solarium on my way home.

A few bucks in the machine, throw the clothes off and just: Aaaaah...

We have many of those places here in town, but I like this the most.

Its fresh, has good and high music in the speakers and the brown tanned colour stays.

Now I think a cold shower will be the best thing.

And a cup of wild raspberry tea afterwards.

And, fingers crossed...a late online kind of thing with Sexysmile?

Dedicated to You...

Avantasia - What kind of love

A night at my place...

Includes fresh shrimps, some bread and a glass of white wine.

I think that in 90% of the cases, simple and basic is better then advanced and fancy.

When I think about it, simple and bacis is the best thing in almost every situation, not only food.

Black pants and a white shirt.

A bowl with hot pasta and pesto.

One red rose.

A bottle of red wine.

I can go on and on.. you get the picture..right?

A slow day...

Long morning in bed.

Many cups of red tea and freash air from the balcony.

Got a offer online I will have a hard time resist.

Bed and breakfast in gothenburg, the same weekend I was going to shake my hips in that club I was talking about .

Perfect!

Now?

Working...or, at least I am here.

Slow and quiet night so I have all the time in the world to prepare for the

big thing tomorrow.

Lat night was interesting and fun.

Never had a coffee with an ex before.

10 years...its scary to think about.

I knew nothing then...

Do I now?

Dont know, but at least I have a little more attitude and clever thoughts under my skin.

The destiny of Fadime

Today its 7 years ago Fadime was shoot to death.

Here in sweden, by her own father.

Fadime and her family came to sweden from Turkey when she was only

7 years old.

When she started to get political and talked about her family starting to watch her every move and "new western kind of life" she was well knowed in tv and newspaper.

She had put a shame over her family, just by having a swedish boyfriend.

The 21:th of january 2002 her father and brother killed her.

Outside her apartment.

Her mother was one of the main witness in court and lied in benifit for her husband.

Fadime bacame only 26 years old.

Today me myself and many with me send a thought to all those women out there.

Being held as prisoners in a free country.
How shall we prevent things like this?

Its in so many cultures and in so many minds the right way to do.

One more thing...

This lovely book was waiting for me on the hallway-floor today.

Its good with that kind of service- book take away.

One every month.

This is a swedish writer and the book is telling You about

the life in the year 500.

Very E.

Just one klick away

Not many things makes me more happy then perfumes.

This one has a scent of green tea and is a perfect day-perfume.

Easy and light.

Does not make that much noise.

Yes I bought it... isnt internet wonderful?

And such a bargain, just 13 dollars instead of 50 like in the little boutique down town.

And so this day ended perfectly.

A new start...

He is back.
Different then before.
But, so am I.
Many things has happend since then.
To built up faith, trust and that feeling from before?
I dont know...
We will give it a chance, cus what if this is one of those things...
You know, that you only read about in magazines or fairytales.
When I say to my friends; try to not regret anything, its just a waste of time.
Should I not live after how I preach?

Nails and hangover ex...

Just got back home from the salon.

A experiment with the nails that turn out to be just perfect.

French with a little twist of E.

And diamonds... 3 of them to be precise.

Marie really is the best nail-guru I have met.

Very sloooow day at work.

Me and S had time to work of the top-10 list of guys we wanna have sex with.

Very interesting I assure you.

After that...the tricky "what animal am I thinking off-questions"

But... if I tell you that cute S was not in the mood...I am not lying :)

I read many blogs.

If you have a blog, and you have a link to other blogs, I may read them also.

Just to check things out.

So I did last night...

And I am really not a person who gets upset easily but after I read this persons blog I was amazed over the lack of sympathy and compassion for other people.

She wrote that neither the war in Gaza or 9/11 effected her.

Why should she care?

She did not know what the war stood foor, or neither did she know anyone in the two towers.

I did not know what to think.

I read it twice..even three times to see the whole picture, maybe she was joking.

A bad joke, but still not really mean it.

But it was real.

She did not wanna read about the war, she did not care that children and innocent people is killed every hour.

Cus she raither thought about parties and makeup.

Wow.

I am still amazed over her lack of intelligence and poor discussion-skills.

But, what I am most amazed over is that a grown up woman, cute and I am sure kind, doesnt wanna learn about how the world works.

I believe people can change and I really hope this one does.

Was gonna met an ex today.

They say never have sex with an ex.

So, I thought a coffee was the right thing for me.

He was to hangover..hahaha

Funny how they never learn huh?

Tomorrow...maybe.

I´m gonna play hard to get for a while.

Dinner and conspiracy-theory....

Easy and calm day at work.
Hurry back home and fix a new face and hair, and drive to the
parents house out in the country.
But first, I took a little turn to the grave yard and lighted a candle for
grandfather.
No tears this time, but a conversation.
Fuck I miss him.
The curch bells rang so beautiful when I lighted my candle and stood on
my knees next to his grave.
Almost like they where talking to me...
I am very grateful I have my faith.
Then, dinner with my loved ones.
Mum, dad and my favourite little brother.
Yes, I have only one...so, he kind of automaticly is my favourite.
Chicken and vegs, and a little dessert I took from work :)
After dinner me and my father use to take a cup of tea and sit in front of the open fire and just talk.
About everything...this time it was Gaza -Israel topic.
And everything he says I once again just suck in to my head.
He knows so much and I am amazed everytime.
We even talked about 9/11.
A topic that is close to my heart and I tried to make him see it from my point of view.
Not easy to change the way to think in just some hours.
And right then, I wished I had one of my friends there, an expert I guess.
He have read and study this much more then me and he would have
the right things to reply that I did not.
Try to think outside the box.
Be critical to everything the media is letting you see.
And use your own head.

Faith, hope and love?

Its funny...

Or, not really in the right meaning of the word.

But I did have faith.

The hope was always deep inside, and I knew somewhere inside myself what

had happend.

And love?

I think so...

But, now I know I was right.

The female intuition is to be trust...again.

Tired blue ones...

What a beautiful weather we had today.

Clear blue sky and no clouds in sight.

I even saw the little osierbuds on the trees...

Oh I know what that means!

The spring is finally here!

You are very welcome my friend...

Took a walk down the beach and after that a little visit to the store

and bought some dinner supplies.

A creamy stew with meat, corn and herbs.

Talked to cute Marie and there will be sexy new nails on sunday.

With a twist this time; little rocky diamonds on my thumbnail.

We are watching a documentry on the tv now...

A fight between Palestines and Israeli people.

I hope they can give a fare picture and objective point of view.

But, is there really anything objective with this war?

Good night people!

Early day tomorrow...

Princess-dream...

This night I had a weird dream.

I was a little hobbit in the Lord of the ring-books you know?

Hairy and big feet and chubby cheeks and red hair.

I wonder what this means?

I need a wax on my legs?

Or my unconscious maybe telling me to switch hair colour?

I dont know...but I do know its time for breakfast!

Fruitsalad and a cup of tea.

Eye candy?

It was something about this day...

Nevermind the chef-meeting and a stupid boss.

No, there was another thing that got my attention today.

All the cute guys in the restaurant.

Where did they come from?

There is one guy...

He comes now and then to have lunch.

He has a charming smile, light brown eyes and dark hair.

He has a way to express himself.

Big gesture and glowing eyes.

He is also deaf.

So, he has never heard my voice and neither have I heard his.

But he reads my lips and understand what I say.

That only makes him more interesting...

A night in a girls bathroom...

M is taking a powernap and I have the bathroom to myself.

We start with a bodyscrub from The Body Shop.

A soap that makes lots of bubbles and have the best scent,

that stays on for ever.

A shampoo that repairs dry and damaged hair.

Expensive equals good.

A hair-mask that you can have in your hair for 15 minuts or so for the best result.Again, expensive but a real first aid saver for my dry hair.

I use so many other products like spray and hair-lotion that I need something to cool it down a bit.

And finally- a facial mask with lemon from Yves Rocher.

5 minuts with this on and your face will shine.

And M wonders if I really need all this-

And still he tells me I smell so good or that my skin is always so soft.

Oh, I wonder why?

If I ignore it...will it go away?

Yeah,

I maybe have some dishes laying in the kitchen.

Waiting for me.

But, I really hate to do the dishes.

You think it will go away if I give it a angry look?

Or just ignore it?

No?

Aah..okey, I be right back.

In a better mood...

The Guru on the flatscreen!

Yeey, I need that music and flashbacks of when I was in India.

The red sand underneath my bare feets.

The kind smile from the little children without shoes.

And the night markets with all the high piles of spices.

When will I go there again?

To the beaches of Goa.

What a day...

Husband suprised me at work today, bringing a present wrapped in shining paper.

And what was it inside?

A thing that will go warm on rainy spring-nights, at my girl-get-together-nights or when I get a cold...

Sex and the city- the movie.

Yeey.

Oh, does he know me!

(well, he should, after all we have lived together for 7 years)

That present was a perfect end of this fucked up day.

Oh, she is cursing??

Yeah, cus the boss made me so upset, and he managed to do that less then 10 minuts after I started.

Changed of planes with the schedule.

He took my sweet S away from my weekends.

And he took Me away from her.

That really sucks!

I dont wanna work weekends with H.

No one wants that...

So, we will see...