One of those phone calls you hate

I just got inside after a lovley trip to Gothenburg... Ice latte , sushi and some shopping.

When my mother called me...

Grandfather was ill...very ill.

The nurses thought he would past away soon...

Fuck.

My grandfather is my idol, he is the one who teached me fishing, drinking and play poker.

I dont want him to die...

Even though, he is 95 years old.. a few more weeks and he be 96.

He has been sick for some weeks now..and always recogniced me when I had visit him.

Hold my hand, smiled at me.

Now I just cry.

I pray to God that it wont be to late, I will go there after work tomorrow.

How can I do that, hold his hands, smile at him..tell him I love him..With the knowledge that it is probably is the last time I ever see him.

A small part of me want him to past away...to find peace and calm.

I dont want him to have any pain.

He had a good life, he has been married to my grandmother for 64 years and had a lot of love and laugher.

The other part of me wants him to be healthy again, like when I was just a little girl, play with me, let me sit in his knee.

Of course this will never happend.

All lifes has an ending and I guess his is about to end...

I just hope I get the chance to say good bye.

Jag älskar Dig Morfar!

A day off...

Mmm...a day off from work means in my world:

Sleep as long as I want

A really girly breakfast (yoghurt, fruits and a lots of different juices)

in bed while reading my new book

My kind of music in the speakers

Yes. Felt good.

Now i am laying in the sofa, having the tv on in the background and looking outside the window watching my constructionworkers building on my lovley balcony...its gonna be huge!

And I cant wait to decorate it... I´m thinking about a theme...I like themes...

I dont want different styles in one and the same room.

My livingroom is romantic, My citchen old-fashion, My bathroom is "Less is more" with white and blue, My bedroom is a little bit oriental mixed with some english furniture... And I want a feeling of Egypt, Tunis, big pillows, lighted candles, low tables, 2 big sofas in black and white, my cool waterpipe, incense that i bought in India, exotic flowers and some cool fabrics on one of the walls.

Its gonna have glasswindows in every side and a heating-device in the ceiling so We can sit there the year around...Just lovley.

I can allready imaging all the late wine nights with the girls...

Sweet!

Working, gym and cravings...

Just got home from a early day at work and after that the gym...
Its really hard for a girl to work out when its just Her and one of the hottest guys she has ever seen in the gym...


Haha..but, I think I did pretty well...
He smiled, I tried to smile cocky and we did our job well.
Then, some 15-year old girls joined us and the moment where kind of spoiled.
Poor girls... they where like; Oh my god..I have done like 10 now.. I think I´m gonna die.
Other girl; yeah..totally..lets got o the shower.
Haha... i just looked at them..what the heck..I just did 60 :-)



Well well... Busy day at work, but thank God I have S.
She makes my days much more easy, funny and I always got a pain in my stomach laughing so much. So...thank You for that!



This fall is all about Me...
There will be Belly-dance classes, Yoga training for my soul and a lot of new books.
Bought that new one i talked about some days ago...
A thousand splendid suns by Khaled Hosseini.



I will start to read that tonight, dont think i have the power or will to do anything else than that right now... My legs feels like spaghetti and "its those days of month" pain has started...
Hmm.. watch out people...I can be a bitch.


So...better stay inside, laying in the sofa and have some soft music on.
I had one song in my head for a couple of days now...





Katy Perry- I kissed a Girl

I kissed a girl and I liked it
The taste of her cherry chap stick
I kissed a girl just to try it
I hope my boyfriend don't mind it
It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight
No, I don't even know your name
It doesn't matter,
You're my experimental game
Just human nature,
It's not what,
Good girls do
Not how they should behave
My head gets so confused
Hard to obey


I think every girl knows it feels better kissing a girl raither then a guy sometimes... Right?
Haha..cant help by thinking of all the crazy nights on the clubs with lovley M and we teased the guys crazy...haha.. kissed each other just to see their looks in their face.

See you tomorrow!
Sneaky and cheeky-Just as it should be.

Back to routines...

First day at work after vaccation.

Back to work, back to routines and back to every-day-things.

I cant sleep to 12:00 any longer, I cant stay up to 03:00...

I cant take a roadtrip whenever I want to and I cant stay at friends all night long...

But you know what?

Its Okey.

I admit that when the cell woke me up this morning i thought that ; you kidding me?

But..after a glass of juice, a quick look in the mirror, some make up and some first aid care to my hair it felt raither good stepping outside and have some music in my Mp3...

I love the air in the eary morning and today the sun was shining on my face, so... I had not really any good reason to feel angry or sad.

At work everything where the same, but sometimes same is good.

Its good when you know what to do.

And its very good to hear from the guest that my food tasted just like they remember from their childhood... a simple thing as that made my day.

Thank you for that sweet old lady.

Lucky me...

I walked into the kitchen and found my husband cooking.
He never cooks.
And of course (cus i am a girl)...
I asked him what he had done?

Why was he so nice to me?
Was he cheating on me or did he breake something in the apartment?

He kissed me, caressed my hair and answered;
I just love you.

Someone will get lucky right in time for dessert...

Go Bananza and shake ya body like a belly dancer...

Yes people.

I am gonna sign up for this fall´s belly-dance classes!

This girl is gonna shake her hips for 10 weeks and she is gonna do it good.

How hard can it be..really... i allredy shake those hips everytime i am on the dancefloor...

But it will be awsome to be teached by a professional and to listen and dance to authentic music!

Today i´m really getting spoiled.

Husband is doing the dishes in the kitchen and i have been promised a massage later this evening...I wonder what I have done to deserve that.

Its such a nice weather today, sun is shining and the temperature is little to high to be fall but still little to cold to be summer...

I think i will get my boots on now and take a walk by the sea, clean my head for a while and just breathe in some salty sea-air.

Empty inside ...

I had a great day...

Where at the galleria and bought a new parfume and a present to the little one..(I was weak...when I saw the cool fortress i could not buy some boring and clever book... he should be playing and fantasize about how he owns that fortress and how his soldiers fight for just him)

Hmm... I wonder if this means I will be a bad mother?

Then is was a great dinner Thai-style and later a movie with my parents.

Had been longing for that movie for a year now...and it was really amazing.

Just that type of movie I love!

Just got home and the plan was to go out but it got kind of late, so i guess its not worth it...not tonight. Sorry boys and girls that i had promised.

Even though i had this great day and have nothing to be sad about...I feel empty inside.

Very strange...is it because i will go back to work on monday?

I think not.. I like my job.

Is it cus the summer is over and the fall is sneaking up on us?

No. I love that season.

I have a lovley family and a man who loves me.

Hmm... maybe I should just get some sleep and feel better when I wake up tomorrow?

Blueberry pie and searching for the perfect gift...

Todays schedule

*Picking up the present to L´s birthday

*Making the dinner for tonight

*Cleaning the apartment

*Buy some flowers

*relax, have a glass of wine and laugh

Yeah, today its all about friends.

Friends that is coming over, friends who having a birthday and friends that are hungry !

So.. L´s birthday. Its much harder to buy presents to kids, they are totaly honest if they dont like it. Adults just smile and say thank you..

So...6 years old.

We always buy those cool cars, colourful lego that you can build castles with or maybe some superhero-dolls.

Not this time though.

Now he is a big boy and i think its a good idea to buy some books for the pre-school time...

I wonder how this will be recieved... :-)

I loved books when i was in his age , so i hope i get a huge smile and a hug as always.

Dinner with M and R tonight... lovely.

I will do some thai-influced dinner and after that hot and spicy meal i think a smooth blueberry pie with vanila ice cream is more then welcome.

I have a busy day so i better get going.

The hunt for the perfect coctail-dress...

My friend S wanted some help in a " i need a dress for the upcoming wedding...

please help me" situation.

Of course I wanted to help.

We took the train to the city and did what we do best : Shop til You drop.

And we did it good... One pink/lilac/white coctail-dress, a lovely shawl and a nice belt for S.

One "this dress will be perfect on saturday"-dress and a pink belt to Me.

Now its time to do another kind of shopping : The food for this evening, and the grocery, candles and some fresh flowers for tomorrow when M&R is joining us for some dinner...

I wanna spoil them big time so... Wish me luck!

Home sweet home...

Every home has a special scent.

In my apartment that scent is spelled : Yankee Candle Clean Cotton.

Just got back home from our second and for this year last roadtrip.

And when i opened the door that warm and kind of

" I have just cleaned "-scent came right at me.

Maybe i am addicted to candles...or not every candle..no, it has to be Yankee.

In the winter i buy ; Christmas Eve & Cinnamon stick

The spring ; Granny Smith & Fresh cut Roses

The summer ; Island Spa & Country linen

And in the autumn ; Clean cotton.

Well, like I said... just got home from Vadstena.

I can tell you things about that town for hours...but I wont.

I will just tell you somethings about what we did, saw and eat...

We lived in this beautiful castle, with light green wallpaper, big golden chandeliers and a view you could kill for.

I went to the big fortress where i have been so many times before, but i cant get tired of feeling the stonewalls beneath my hands, the beautiful paintings of kings and queens and the windows with the most exquisite details...

And i couldnt help but smiled when i heard the guide talking about all great things that had happend here cus I all ready knew it.. I have heard that story since i was just a little girl.

Still it fascinates me.

We went to the big medieval church and listen to a concert with songs from the monastery and if I could have those girls singing those songs for me every night, I think I had fallen a sleep even quicker then I do now...

I lighted a candle for people who needed it and sent some prayers that I hope got there also.

The windows in that church is amazing.

I could stand still, just watching those for hours.

Its something about the light that makes it almost glowing.

The pictures carefully painted in the glass, the ikons and saints and the smell of candles burning out is very special.

My favourite restaurant is placed in this town.

Rådhuskällaren.

With the same menu every year, I know exactly what i will have.

Perfect medium rare meat, good wine and that chocolate cake i have told you about earlier.

Mmm... a girl could be in heaven for less then that...trust me.

So...we eat, we drank and we had the time of our lifes...As always.

Its nice to leave this town for a while but its also very nice coming back.

Beautiful...

Simple wishes through the day.

Dreams created by only us.

Two hearts separated by the distance.

But joined with every breath of our soul.
Thoughts of one another fulfills our every day.

Without this greatest love we feel, our world wouldn’t be the same.
Our hearts ache each passing moment, with sorrow and pain, knowing this distance between

us could never be erased.

Late breakfast E-style...

Woke up late...

Had 2 missed calls and 6 recived sms.

People wanted to hang out...I wanted to sleep...

The sound of churchbells and a squeking window made me wake up...

Missing church service...hope He will forgive me..I am sure He will...

Called M and promised to be ready in 10 minuts...

Both she and myself know that means one hour.

We took the car to the mall, got some new clothes and my feet , like always, led me to the book-store.

I think i can walk around there all day...

Browse through a book with a sad title about women in Kabul, another one about a strippers-daily life and finally the one that got my whole attention : A thousand splendid suns by Khaled Hosseini ...

Kite runner was amazing.

This will be my next project to read.

After shopping there was only one thing in our minds: Breakfast!

A chicken sandwich, bubble water and a ice coffee in the outside café was exactly what we girls needed.

Meet F down town.. he smiled, I smiled back and we walked past each other.

Felt good in one way..and still very different.

Wish we could be friends... it can never happend.

Wake up and smell the coffee E...

A moment between shower and wine...

Just went out of the shower...

With my kind of music playing from the speakers, a glass of white wine on the washbowl and my clothes for the evening neat placed on my bed...

I am trying to make those perfect lips.

Its hard.

But, i have my favourite gloss and some new bought make up so I think it will be just fine..

Or, not fine.. this night i will look perfect.

Its good to be a girl sometimes.

You can walk around in your apartment, wearing just your underwear.

Having a wineglass in your hand, looking at your wardrobe...walk back to the bathroom, checking your makeup, put on some more hair-spray, choose from your hundreds of earrings,fill your glass back up ...go back and choose another song.

And, no one will care.

Lovley.

Welcome sunshine...

The sun is here again...

After 2 or 3 weeks of rain, grey clouds and storm...

Its finally back!

I need the sun, i need to be on the beach and i need to feel that wearing just a short skirt and top is enough sometimes...

A girl needs to show of her legs once in a while..right?

So.. sun in the sky, temperature that is rather okey- i must make some quick food, buy some bubblewater and fruit..and get my girls together and hit the beach for a couple of hours.

Tonights planes- dancing and be fabouls

The girl I gonna bring is M (not the lovley mother this time)

And we gonna to see this band...and meet D, witch will feel weird i think.

But, i will say hey, dance and dont give him a second of notice more then I have to.

Or, this is the Big plane..we will see...

Mmm... i´m getting spoiled.

Husband in the kitchen making breakfast...

It smells like bacon and egg... That works.

I like getting spoiled.

Sex and the city Carrie - Every girl should be treated like a princess.

Amen!

Changes of planes...

We where suppose to be at this big event tonight...

Free drinks, lovley food and some good music.

But..after a call from my boss that said it was canceled, i had to make some changes of planes.

I am not that girl who likes that...But, today i felt like shopping until I drop, eat some sushi and breath in some city-air.

So...shopping it is.

Yesterday was great.

Its something about babies...and especially this baby of course.

To feel a newborn baby just fall asleep in your arms the first time You meet him is amazing.

Thank you M & R for a lovley day and night, and i hope we have that dinner next friday.

When i do the food and you just make me laugh.

Deal?

Someone told me; babies are the fruit of life...

And that ends my blog today.

A day for my soul...

Thursday morning and the apartment is still quiet and calm...

Today we have only one mission: visit the newborn baby at M&R´s house.

There will be tears... yes, from me of course.

There will be laughing, hugs and talking memories of how it was Back in the days...

M is one of my best friends and I cant really take it all in...she is a mother now.. far more grown up then I am....

We, the girls that made the boys go crazy on the dancefloor, the girls who drank pink coctails untill the first sunbeam hit us...

And the girls that had so many dreams, so many things to do..

Did we achive those dreams?

Well yes...some of them.

We growned up and made new dreams, dreams about family, houses and children.

Are these dreams better then the old ones?

I think not..they are just different...and as long as i have a mix of the old and the new i am satisfied.

Water and soap...

Woke up in the best way today...

Some raindrops at the window, a purring cat at my feet and a warm hand caressing me, a strong hug and a lovely glance from my husband...

Love to have a vaccation...to sleep as long as i want to...eating a late breakfast down town and dont have to care about how late i can be up at night...

After some fruitsalad, a few games of online poker and my daily glass of carban water it did not feel that bad to do some work at home...

Of all the chores you can do, i like the laundry most.

Its something about taking your bags of clothes down in the basement, the sent of soap and detergent that makes me think about my childhood on the country...
And...every thing that makes me think about those happy and careless times i must like...

Wearing just a shirt and worned jeans, hair under a scarf and with flip-flops on my feet, my MP3 in my ear...humming some songs and hang out washing its calming to me...

Now its time to prepare some dinner for tonight...

What do you think about my fathers fishsoup?

*Haddock

*Salmon

*Shrimps

*Red and green pepper

*Spring union

*Garlic

*Tomatoes

*Carrots

*Sliced potatoes

*Lemonjuice

*Water

*Fishstock

*Cream

*Salt & Pepper

Sundays equals church...

After a great party at J&J´s house..i had a couple of hours sleep..and then it was sunday allready.. If i am free that means church.

With sleep still in my eyes, a quick check in the mirror and a "I hide my hair beneath a scarf-decision" i took a green apple and walked the same road i do on sunday mornings...

Todays topic

" Remember the Sabbath day and keep it holy"

I think everyone, even if You dont beliave...needs a day off, to think, spend it with family & friends and relax...

After that...we packed our bags and took a roadtrip for 3 days...

Just walked down the small streets, took a coffee, visited a old castle, and eat delicious food.

Now...home again..but just for a while, the bags will be packed again for the trip to V.

A drink or two...

Good morning people.

I thought i should sneak out in the livingroom, make me a cup of red tea, lay in the sofa and write for a second... while the apartment is still silent and calm...The cats are sleeping on the old kitchen sofa, the husband is sleeping in the bedroom..Its just me and and my laptop for a while...Nice.

The only sounds that got my attention is the raindrops on the windows, the sparkling bubbles in my waterglass and a quiet yawn from one of the cats...

So.. take a deep breath and just write for a while huh?

Okey... Saturday today.

Sometimes that means a girlsnight out..sometimes it means having a nice meal out and maybe some drinks afterwards..And sometimes it means just staying home and catch a movie..

This night it means going to J&J and have a really good time with our friends, drinking some wine, playing some games and then go out and dance...

But before we think about tonight, we are gonna have som lunch at K&L´s house.

She have one of the best taste in design i have ever seen..its a real pleasure to walk in that house.

I´ll better get started..their is hair to be fixed, make up to do and clothes to choose...and shoes..oh my..i have things to do as you can see...

The ace of Spades...

After a day of shopping clothes, drinking coffee in our favourite café and a visit to the liquor-store to buy the lovely cold, crispy white wine I just love (to have at J & J:s " we have a new house-party" tomorrow night)...

It felt good to come home and actually do some cleaning(while the raindrops fell down on the street outside) in the apartment before we pack our bags and do that Roadtrip we have been talking about.

I have a favourite restaurant we gonna visit on our trip... Its placed in a basement and have that old-fashioned feeling about it that i love.. Lighted candles, red and white tablecloths and a simple menu and good wine.

What more can a chef (or a girl) ask for.. and the desserts..ah..dont even make me start.. Fresh strawberries, a heavy chocolate cake and maybe a glass of champagne and I am in heaven for a hour or two...

This afternoon i spent playing some poker, texas holdem that is..

And i think its more tricky to play online, without seeing the faces of the other players, their eyes, their movements when they look at their cards..their expressions.

But, it went just fine...and i won a game or two...actully 5 to be precise..poor guys who thinks girls cant play...

A lovely day at the Zoo...

Yes people...

With grey clouds on the sky and temperature that is not exactly mediterranean , what better way to spend Your day with..then go to the Zoo?

Walking around in the park, smile at the cute animals, take a coffee and just be...

There is something about piglets... I like most of the animals we saw...but...nothing can compare with piglets...

My husband know this, so when he saw the barn and the other farm-animals..he knew that i would run over there..just like the kids who where there at the same time...

Just a quick glance at me, a smile..and he knew he had lost Me.

Well, just for a while...

We came home just in time to see the rain falling down from heaven.

Right now.. the dinner is on the stove, a bottle of white wine in the fridge and a new movie is waiting for us in the DVD...

I am a chef, so there will be some talk about food and wine here.

Today I just write down the ingredients of todays dinner

* Poork

*Noodles

*Red pepper

*Fresh green beans

*Red onion

*Garlic

*Coconut Milk

*Hot & sweet mango chutney

*Red curry paste

Wook and mix

Once upon a time...

There was a girl who wanted to write a sentence or two about her daily life...

About her crazy hours at work...about the lazy days with just a book as a companion...

about the wild nights out and about the lovley times with her beloved ones.

This is the perfect place for that and the Girl who wanted all this is Me.

Fairly young, slightly daring and very playful.

Loves food & good wine, medieval ages, dancing, reading, flirting, red tea, perfumes, fashion and music

I guess You will figure me out..eventually?