Am I worth it?

The result of my night in the kitchen:

Tandoori chicken

Spicy chili lamb

Saffron rice ( prepared)

Vegs with some spices from Libya

Soffran and yoghurt icecream

Mangosalad with coconut and lime

Raita ( yoghurtsauce with cucumber)

Mango Chutney

Husband just called take away.

Me like that idea.

Flour on my cheek...

I must be crazy.

Standing in the kitchen baking my own Naan-bread.

Nothing crazy about baking, I love that...

But that I have the longing for it..after a day in hell at work.

Crazy people, food that ran out and confused girls who tried to make food like it tasted 400 years ago.

Well, we did good.

And boss gave me a huge lamb-steak to have for tomorrows dinner with my friends.

So, tandoori lamb it is.

And, its no real India dinner without Naan.

The dough is ready and so am I.

Garlic is filling the apartment up and the lamb-stew is on the stow.

The saffron rice I do first thing tomorrow.

But, the ice-cream and fruits I can do tonight...

Hmm..if only there where more hours in a day.

Husband cleaned the apartment.

Fresh flowers in every room.

Shining bathroom and new towels.

My beautiful mosaic plate from Turkey is standing so perfect on the table, filled to the top with exotic fruits.

New bought candles with some fresh scent to it will decorate every empty place I have.

It will be good.

Amen

Russel Brand...

He is funny, handsome and talented.

We love him tonight.

Yes we do.

scrub and scrub...

The bathroom smells like... hmm.. vanilla and tea?

Took some time and did a foot-scrub, a hair mask and some love to my nails.

Grow grow and grow please.

Sweet P´s nails are lovely.

I want also.

But I want my own to grow a little bit more, then I will do some professional work on them.

Found a new blog last night.

"The second lady"

Interesting point of view and a great touch of romance.

Talk about romance-this saturday is the 7:th year anniversary for me and love.

Thats quite some time people.

Perhaps a dinner on my favourite restaurant, movie and some suprices?

Cus I do love those...

Oh shoot, I was suppose to meet little M .

But the hot bath took the energy out of me.

I´ll do it tomorrow.

Promisse!

//E

Red wine in my finest glass...

Mmm...

After a long day at work and some overtime with the boss.

I felt quite good about myself and did a good job with the crazy guest we had tonight.

Boss liked me also- I got a whole bottle of red wine, Shiraz, when I was leaving.

Thank You.

So, got home, took my finest wine glass and poured some up.

A warm shower after a very cold walk home felt good.

Did you noticed the sky tonight?

A clear sky and millions and millions of stars, blinking and flirting with you.

One was moving so fast, it was a plane...

Leaving for warmer country maybe?

I envy them.

The girls called me.

India evening at my place on friday with the guys?

Well, how can I say no to them...

So, Indian food, spicy vegs, naan-bread, saffron ice-cream and wine to everyone it is.

It will be perfect.

I love having those sorts of dinners here.

A perfectly cleaned apartment, fresh flowers in every room, lighted candles and Me in the kitchen with a drink just before they arrive.

Perfect.

What do you think about: Hot curry chicken, Tandoori salmon, cardamom rice, garlic Naan-bread and lime and chilli wooked vegs?

A saffron ice-cream with Mango

Coffe and amaretto

Yeah... Just a dinner in my taste!

What do you think?

A picture of my new tattoo...

Something like that, maybe with little less green stuff.

The cross is for me and my faith.

The red rose is for my grandfather, he loved those.

Oh it will hurt, cus i am gonna cover another one up and I really remember the pain I had 6 years ago.

Okey, tuesday morning with a cup of tea besides me.

Todays music is this : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_JssKIr2Iu4

I think it will be some overtime tonight and after that a walk with M and to pick my earring up at her place... (Yes P, I found it...)

Now I think its breakfast time!

What a great day...

Ah what a day!

Malin came and picked me up at 9 something...

And after just some minuts on the highway the engine started to boil.

Not very good.

At all...

So...as those clever girls we are, we took the first best way out and visited M´s parents farm...

They have several cars.

And one for us.

Yeey.

Back on the road we had some coffee and high music on...

Untill we saw the big mall that was our destination for today.

The queue was unbelievable...

At least 200 people before us.. freezing and muttering .

But we finally got inside!

Oh, and what we bought things...just like pro´s .

Dresses, jackets, stuff for the hair, perfumes, make up and handbags...

All of this for the humble cost of 100 $

A girl are in heaven!

After 3.5 hours inside it felt good to be back in the car and on our way home.

I had a date with Sweet P and to check out her nails.

Nice salon, cute girl and very good prices!

Now its time for the first Glögg-moment of this year.

Perfectly heated and with a blanket in the sofa.

Mmm...

//E

Thinking of...

Thinking of warmer temperatures...

A more relaxing tempo.

Friendly people who are real.

Nice pillows on the floor to sit on and a waterpipe with friends.

Hot tea that keeps coming in without asking.

A nice restaurant with a sea-view.

Some tapas-food to share and why not a drink with fresh juice in it.

Ah...

Think, think and think E.

Good Night

With a painting just in My taste I say Good night to you all.

Sleep tight and dream about all the things you like.

//E

Subject for today...

Almost no sleep tonight.

I wont complain, cus the reason was worth it.

Just try to not make a repeat today ...

Woke up way to early , still alone in the apartment.

Its nice, doing thing in my own way.

In my own tempo.

No one who cares if my jeans are on the floor, my hair stuff in the whole bathroom and the best of all; I can have some Reggaeton on 06.30 ... yeeey

Tonight: Cinema with M.

I had hoped A would follow but he couldnt.

But before the movie...some C-time!

//E

Yeeey...

Back home from the mall...the result You can see on the pic.

* One Mini-skirt

* 2 black tights

* One anti-frizz and shine spray from Sexy hair

* One Repair mask from Wella

* Mascara from Max factor

* Foundation from Loréal

* French-nail polish kit

Total cost : 140 $

Thank you very much E.

-You welcome!

Ah...

Mmm...

Never had sushi tasted this good.

Sitting in the sofa, crossed leg as usual and having this lovely sushi-lunch.

Called sweet Malin and asked her if she wanted to join me on a fast shopping tour down town...

Just some food for the (lonely) weekend and a take away lunch.

She did.

When I was walking dont to her apartment, with my favourite scarf, a good hairday and some city chic clothes a man walked pass me.

And he stoped a few meters ahead.

Turned around and said; Damn you smell good girl.

Haha... I didnt see that coming.

Now I have to eat up this cus later the shopping continues..

In the next town.

I will get some more stuff for my hair, some new make-up and maybe...just maybe some shoes.

//E

My favourite poem...

I have a favorite poem...and I had it since I was 14 years old.

Sad, romantic or logical?

Lägg din hand i min om du har lust

Lägg din hand in min om du har lust!

Jag är inte den som stannar kvar

att ur kärlek suga märg och must.

Jag är en som kommer och som far.

En förförisk vandringsmelodi

drog mig tidigt bort från hemmets kust.

Jag är bara en som går förbi.

Lägg din hand i min om du har lust!

~Hjalmar Gullberg

Hmm... I wonder if I should try translate it into english?

Put your hand in mine if you want.

I am not one of those who stays around

to suck the lust and marrow out of love.

I am one of those who come and goes.

A seductive walkingmelody

early took me away from the coast of home.

I am just one of those who walkes by.

Put your hand in mine if you want.

//E

A blue eyed monster?

Okey my sweet friends.

When that week of the month comes.

Or..not week...more 3 days cuz I am a lucky girl.

And when work have one of the most crazy day ever with

stupid questions,a boss who cant cook and cheeky guest.

When its so cold outside..

And when my man is leaving me for 3 days.

Then I dont need an excuse for candy.

Just give me it and hope I be nice.

And yes.

This cheeky girl, with the ice-blue eyes and that warm smile that use to be such a sweatheart.

Just became a little monster.

But still cute...

A little bit.

Grrr....

A brand new one...

The fantastic book i have finished stills echoing in my mind.

I wanted more.

I still do.

But, I got a new one.

A whole brand new, not by far in my genre.

But I thought; why not?

Why not try something new for once.

So... some kind of detective novel with murderes and dark nights.

Oh I better hold on to my pillow and have every light on in the bedroom.

So..reading for an hour or so...then sleep.

Work early tomorrow !

//E

Wanna see?

Bought some new black pants.

Will goes perfect with a white shirt.

And one pair of those.

Dark wintage blue jeans with cool 70-feeling with bootcut.

If the dog is the mans best friend...

The Visa card is the girls best friend.

//E

Bubbles...

There is nothing more refreshing after a day at work-

Carbonated water with a little twist.

Lots of ice cubes and a splash of mango juice.

Yeeeah!

Today its Girlsnight.

After a wish from sweet S- no suger added please.

Hmm..so, I went to the store and bought some mango,raspberry and strawberry that I´m gonna throw in the blender with some full fat cream and yoghurt.

Mmm...

She better love my " no suger, just fatty kind of smoothie/ice cream"...

Took a well earned shower and tried some of my new hair-luxury out.

And Gosh does my hair smells like heaven right now.

Still a little moist.

(I know at least one of You have a little thing for that...)

I wonder if a quick powernap is a good idea?

//E

Lollipop, lollipop oooh my lollipop

Mmm... I found a strawberry lollipop.

Yummie.

I think I gonna be sick.

Have this feeling in my throat and its always the same...

I dont wanna be sick now.

This weekend I´ll be alone... friday to sunday night.

And, if I am sick...who will take care of me?

Bring me tea, listen to me whine over stupid things and fix all of those movies I wanna see?

Hm...I will have to think about this.

Today at work we had a chef-meeting.

Interesting how people can think different.

Really.

One of the girls left with tears in her eyes.

I cant help but wonder:

What on earth did she thought we gonna say?

Maybe she lives in a little pink bubble where everyone is on her side.

I dont think I ever will be.

Neither will S.

Or Y.

Hehe..time will tell.

I said what was on my heart and I am proud of that.

Now: Tea that I bought in Tunisa and the rest if my espresso-brownie.

I wonder if that sort of tea can be bought here...

But maybe its not the same.

Cus this one I remember the store, the scent, the children who played football on the streets, the girls in veils and the men who smoked fat cigars.

There is was not just a cup of tea.

It was a routine for the night.

Poeple drank tea, playing cards and listening to the Adhan (call to pray).

The temperature was perfect... 25-something at 21 in the evening.

Yes I want to go back...

Sweet Man...

Today at work, a sweet gentleman walked towards me...

- You are such a lovley girl, always with a smile on your face!

Aw...

A simple thing like that made my day.

Thank You stranger!

Amore...

What about this guys.

Watch and learn.

http://www.aftonbladet.se/webbtv/nyheter/utrikes/article3564899.ab

What I want...

Oh I am tired now.

My eyes feels like its full of tiny stones.

Maybe Mr. John Blund saw me before and thought: There is a girl who need some sleep.

New-made bed.

My most expensive sheets.

My favourite pillow.

One lighted candle.

Open window.

One cat in bed and the other on the floor.

My music on...very very quiet.

Perfect for E.

And hey, my 100:th contribution on this Blog.

*cheers in a glass of bubblewater with a tiny lemon-slice*

//E

Tea and gossip...

After a day at work ,making everything from scratch, it felt good coming home, take a shower and do some make-up.

Right in time P came and we went to the coffee-shop and sat there for 3 hours.

Sweet.

Gossip,gossip and gossip where on todays list.

Its funny how the time just flows away when you have a good friend and several cups of chai...

Took a little walk to one of the stores here.

That one with the perfumes, make up and the luxury for the hair.

I found balm, lotion and other sweets for my hair.

All wraped in pink of course.

When the wind blows like this in the mornings and the frost is so remaining, my hair is screaming: help me E, do something!

-Give me some nutrition, ge me some love and caring.

Who am I to reject that?

Yeah...right.

So, 100 $ later... The hair better keep quiet.

//E

Dark road?

I found a poem that I liked.

Your road is dark

It's a thin, thin line

But I want You to know

I'll walk it for You any time

Maybe Your other girlfriends

they couldn't pass the test

Well if Your rough and ready for love

Honey I'm tougher than the rest

Sleep tight!

//E

Chocolate dream

I love chocolate.

I love the smell of coffee.

I love the calming feeling when I put my hands in a bowl and create a cake.

So, sticky chocolate-cake with espresso it is.

The whole apartment is full of this scent.

Lovely.

It would be ready in 10.

I wonder if we have whiped cream or vanilla icecream in the fridge?

Wich one do YOU prefere?

//E (with flour on her cheeks)

Late breakfast...

Free Sunday.

Late saturday and fell alseep around 04:00.

After a sweet day with my lovely A downtown and some wine and laughter I took the car and later on the ferry on a freezing sea to have a dinner with P and J.

A cool beef-stew with dark chocolate,chili and red wine.

Woke up by a sms from S and she wanted to get some breakfast.

Hmm..way to early for this girl.

So...I went back to sleep (just moved from the bed to the sofa)

And woke up again around 12.30 and took a walk to my favourite café and got

my energy-boost I need.

Hot chai with vanilla.

And even S and A where there , eating some lunch.

Now I think I will make some home-made pizza with tuna and garlic.

Yummie

//E

Long live the Internet...

Internet ia a good thing.

You can chat, make homepages and find new friends.

You can also use Google to search something.

But, are you always ready for the answer you may find?

I was not.

Tip of the day; Never google someones name if you are not totaly ready for the answers.

Maybe she is not who you think?

Maybe she is exactly what people told you.

I wonder what S did last night?

Was it dance or was it movie at home?

According to the MMS i got so... the last alternative?

//E

Totaly lost...

Ops.

I forgot my cellphone at work yesterday.

And how lost I am today...

Is it weird to get panic attacs, start to sweat and drewl?

Haha... its not that bad but I miss it.

So, up early, talk a walk to the office and maybe I get some breakfast downtown.

A cup of hot chai latte will be pefect.

But first...som first aid to my hair and new tanned skin...

What to wear today?

Jeans skirt and black boots?

//E

Will You catch me?

As the yellow, red and orange leafs falling down on the streets...

So am I.

And I cant say I dont like it.

The big Question is: Will You catch me?

This night it was flowers, wine and fresh shrimps.

Great.

//E

Thank you...

Thank you A for being there.

Good night!

//E

Say what again...

Champagne... on a thursday ?

-Yes.

But, isnt that kind of alkoholic type of thing?

-Maybe, I dont care. Not today.

Oh, then knock yourself out.

-Thank you.

So, champagne it is.

And we talk the real thing.

Not some white wine with bubbles.

Champagne from Champange, just the way I like it.

Thaxs sweet P for saving my hairday today :-)

And yeah, you remember that lip-plum gloss thing that does magic?

Lancome Primordiale Optimum Lévres is the name.

Try to say that fast 5 times!

I just gonna lay back now.

See you later

//E

Like a cookie...

Chocolate-skin has a whole new meaning now.

I smell so good !

To bad I am all alone tonight.

Right now: Taking care of laundry

Soon: "Wanted" on tv and a hot cup of chocolate

Later: My book & a soft bed

//E

Just like a little girl...

My paket arriwed today.

Yeeey!

I love pakets, I love presents and I love them more when its me myself who bought it.

The perfume was perfect.

It really was "between the sheet-kind of scent"

With a twist of fruit.

Fresh and mystical?

And...it doesnt stop there my friends.

I got a goddie-bag also!

Bath-foam and lotion with strawberries.

And a cute little bottle with hand-lotion with dark chocolate and nut-oil.

Love being a girl...still!

//E

Sexy moon...

Its something about the moon.

I am a Cancer so I "must" love it.

But there is something more...

Cant put my finger on it...but it have been with me since I was little.

Today was the " Fuck its cold, I need to wear some knitted gloves" Day.

Sweet P smiled and asked where my hat was.

I did not answer on that one...

I never wear hats...Never.

I think its sexy on guys.

Those hats that are like " yeah I am cool and can wear this to my skateboard" kind of hats i mean.

I spend the night with C and its always a pleasure.

Now I must get some time with my book.

Yes I got the feeling back...the feeling that says; just one more page E...

Love it!

Good night people

//E

What about some...

What about some MTV in the morning...

Just in time to the " top 10 at ten" this time with Rihanna.

Sweet music to prepare my breakfast to.

Will be working late today with the cute trainee P.

But I mostly looking forward to the lovely walk home afterwards in the chilly night.

Get all of those scentes inside my lungs and look at the full moon that should be tonight..right?

After that, and a shower...

Its C time.

Yeey

//E

warning...warning...

Ops...

Had some time over and kind of found this new page.

A page that contains perfumes.

Many parfumes.

How about this: Bubblegum, cosmopolitan,fresh air and cucumber.

This is just a few of them and they dont cost a thing....almost.

The name of my new perfume?

(Yes i bought one.. but, only one..a tiny one)

"Between the sheets..."

Oh Yes.

If I am not here for some time..I probably got lost in this lovely page.

And...if it had gone some days... Call for help.

//E

Getting a cold?

Uh...

I am freezing cold.

Even though I wear jeans, shirt and a scarf.

Hate getting sick.

Hate having a fever.

But mostly I hate how comanding and pathetic I get...

Maybe its cus of the weird weather and the lack of clothes sometimes...

One day its 17 degrees and sunny.

And today its like 7 degrees and the rain is poring down on the grey streets.

Eat my breakfast downtown this morning with S.

Chicken sandwich with salad,an orange and hot vanilla Chai latte.

Yum Yum.

Now this poor girl gonna make some pancakes with black currant jam.

//E

Perfect morning according to E...

Mmm...

A day off and the perfect way to spend the first hour.

I have a thing I do...or maybe you can call it a routine?

Okey here is the morning with E.

Waking up by the sounds from outside (cus the window is always open)

Discover I am alone and the only sound is from my laptop, I always sleeps with very low music on.

Checking my cell and discover 3 new sms-

One from P: Hey, wine at my place this saturday.

One from S: To sexish- to write here :-)

One from C: That melted my heart.

Slowly taking my legs over the bedside and go to the bathroom and brushing my teeth and find my glasses.

Get a glass of bubble water from the fridge.

Give my sweet cats their breakfast and they purr around my naked legs.

Clicking my way forward in my mp3 and get some turkish song on..for that holiday feeling that fills my soul up..right sweet P?

Goes back to bed...and almost get lost in the sheets, taking the laptop and checking mails and of course that thing I do right now... Writing to you guys.

So...sounds like a routine that is normal?

Or is it just me who HAVE to brush my teeth the second I wake up?

There is no better feeling than going back to bed and feel clean :-)

Hmm..

I think I will go back to sleep...just for a second or two.

See you later!

//E

Hurry...

Me and lovely S got an great idea at work : Lets go to the movie tonight.

And so we will.

I am doing my make-up now and try to get my hair straight.

What to wear at the cinema?

Well... I thought casual ...

Baggy jeans

White shirt

Big Palestine-scarf (black and white)

Black high heels

make up that goes in brown/gold and big creol-rings in my ear.

What do You think about that sweet people?

Oh , now am I late...again!

See you!!

//E

Change my planes...

My planes for tonight was to spend it with C.

But, things happend and I am a girl that can take advantage of that and make it to something good.

The feeling and atmosphere from last night is still very real.

So, why not make my own version of Meze...

So... went to the store and the list where something like:

Dawali

Figs

Feta-cheese

Olives with peppers

Marinated chili and garlic

Yummie.

I have had it worse.

C- I hope you figure things out and I am here when You are done.

You know I am more then happy to listen and maybe I have something clever to bring?

To all of you other people- Have a great saturday night!

And S- I love the new change...you go girl!

Miss you and hope tomorrow comes fast.

//E

Details people..Details!

Okey...woke up and felt better then I should do.

No hangover, no head eache...nothing.

Laying in the sofa still in underwear and my sheets, having a glass of juice.

Very well...

Last night was great.

Chosed the little black dress with a pink ribbon in the waist.

Bought my favourite red wine.

Meet sweet Maria down the bus station and we went to her place, doing some make up and our magic with our hair...Me with straight long shiny, she with cute curls.

As always, fancy people arrives late and so did we after some time in the car trying figure out where the heck Afí´s house where.

At the door the georgous Afi and her 2 huge dogs welcomed us.

What a nice apartment she had...Just my tatste...white,white, and white.

We started with som red wine, Meze (olives, cheese,fruits,tomato-crackers and some faboulus stuffes wineleafs)

Oh what I love this food...

Then we had some dinner: Chicken with saffron and lemon, salmon with garlic and Persian-rice with Liba bread...

You think I was in heaven?

Asking sweet A about every detail when she moved in the kitchen.

We eat, drank and laughed so much that I have pain in my stomach today :-)

She was the cutest thing when she turned to me and said; E, I can tell you are not from here, cus You are one of those people you can talk to.

And really connect with.

Aw... my heart melted.

Cus that what I want people to think of me.

That I am easy-going and open minded.

Later that night some wonderful women came by, the women from next door.

Haha... I hope I can be like that when I get older.

Travel and have that possitive attitude.

Its really amazing that even though it was some year different ( 30 years i think..)

We talked, laughed just like all of us where 15.

And there where more wine, more drinks..more Amaretto and chocolate.

So, thank you girls!

From the bottom from my heart, it was a long time ago I laughed this much.

Next time we have this all over again, at my place.

And I make some Indian food and we have more wine...sounds good?

I am wondering: How can I be awake right now?

But I am and I guess I should use that time to do something useful.

Just havent figure out exactly what yet...

//E

Just perfect...

The perfect night contains :

Friends

Good food

Laugther

Drinks

This will be a night I will remember for a long time and the day after say; I will never drink again.

More details tomorrow.

Now this girl need some sleep

//E

A night of luxury ...

Tracy Chapman in a nice volume from the livingroom.

Lighted candles in the bathroom. (Yankee Candle of course)

I did a nice hot bubble-bath.

Did some foot and hand scrub with a heating-effect.

Spent some time on my hair and made a leave in conditioner with pineapple.

Shaved my legs with the new-bought cute & pink razor.

Find my old friend the body lotion with peach.

Made some love to my face with a facial-milk with green tea.

Picked my eye-browns and took a big glass of passionfruit juice.

Oh my... I have said it before: I love to be a girl.

//Silky E

Give me...

* My laptop

* A beach

* One pink cocktail

* 30 something degrees

* My girls

* A soft club where My music is playing.

Give me a vaccation please :-)

A girl can dream...right?

Untill then... sleep tight and dream about good things, I know I will.

//E

Energy-boost

Oh what a energy I had today!

Was it something in my brerakfast?

Was it the quick run to work ?

I dont know but I liked it.

Well, at work I was truly amazed over my...what did you call them Sweet P, Chipmunks?

Haha.

Cute E is so smart, have visions like a 25 year-old and are as fast in both mind and body as any other chef I have ever seen.

Cool.

Goofy F is cool cus he gets Mine and S sense of humour wich is not that common.

Oh, I got to read a little something from the georgous girl behind the desk today.

Wow girl...Its cool to know a future writer.

Cus that what you will be some day.

Tonight will be a girlsnight.

Me and S, some good fruitplate and Wanted on tv.

We dont dare watch it alone...so now days every wendesday is ours.

And...I think I have promised her a massage...Oy oy..

Ah I am so longing for friday with my beloved M and Afi.

Another kind of girlsnight, with a lot of red wine, food that has it roots in Iran and one or two hours of laughing ... ( Make it all night... cus this girl took saturday off)

Sweet!

Fresh air in my lungs...

As I walked home from work this evening I let my eyes rest on the black sky.

And never have the moon been more beautiful.

When I got home , took a shower and putted on some soft clothes I got this craving for a special juice.

That kind of juice that only is abroad...

I have seen it in Spain and Turkey.

Peachjuice and a lot of icecubes.

Yummie.

If I could choose one superpower right now...

It had been to transport myself wherever I want.

And it had been to a store in Turkey to get that juice.

Haha...

//E

( who found some passionfruit in the kitchen to make the craving go away)

When...

When smiling lips turn into sad ones.

And when a full soul turn into a empty one.

When the heart is beating harder then the other?

What to do?

Oh what a day...

I have laughed so much today.

At work cus I had 3 new trainees that called on me..every second.

E this...E that... E what shall I do know? E...E...E!!

Haha.

But they where good... really good.

One of them, P, 28 came from El Salvador.

Sweet...she promised to talk spanish to me so maybe I get those old phrases back that I learned in school.

Little E was just 15 and still so fast.

And the last one F was so cute..17 and thought he owned the world.

Just that kind of attitude I like.

I have been thinking about things you teach others, and that I guess you live by.

Is really everything You say true?

Do you live as you learn.

I did not last night.

I have always said; Better to regret things You did, then those things You did not.

So C- dont regret.

Life is life...

And there is nothing to do then look back and shrug your shoulders and live life.

//E