Happy New Year!

The last day of 2008.

What did I achieve...what went wrong?

Well, even though the fall and winter probably where the worst time I ever had I

came back.

Stronger and more confident then ever.

A new kind of inner peace that tells me; I can do it all.

Of course many good things happend also!

There was party with the girls, endless shopping, meeting friends, a lot of time with my lovely family and meetings with new people that I so easy fell in love with.

I like my work, there is food on the table and a big apartment that I own.

Cant really complain there huh...

Today I will take a moment to pray for the one who has past away, for the sick ones and for those I dont think anyone else is praying for.

After that my sweet readers: FIESTA!

My favourite partner; Champagne.

A new dress, golden jewellery, lots of extentions, long new made nails and high heels.

Sounds good?

Some people make new years promises...

Not me.

I dont think you ever will keep those you make under forcement of others, neither while you´re sippin´ on champagne.

But...I can promise to try...

I promise to try be myself.

Following both my heart and mind.

And be as passionately as I always am.

Now people.

Have a great night, dance alot, kiss alot and drink wisely so you remember everything in 2009.

Cus I know I will.

A walk outside...

I like taking walks in the night...

Or evening..

As long as its a little bit cold and dark.

And it was cold today, and I took a walk down town,

cleaning some of my thoughts out.

Me and my walkman.

This has been on for a while now and I like it.

" I´m strong on the surface

Not all the way through

I´ve never been perfect

But neither have you"

- Linkin Park

Shop untill I drop...

So, what did E buy for herself this night?

A bottle of Cabernet sauvignon, Chile of course.

2 of these, perfect on the way to the party tomorrow

I´m thinking about having a red dress tomorrow and this will look good underneath...

And so will this little thing.

4 days has past...

4 days since I heard your voice.

Its hard not pick up the red cell and just do a sentence or two.

I want to...but I wont.

Will go and do some shopping instead.

New lingerie maybe?

That always makes me in a good mood.

I think the theme for today will be red and black.

Saw this beautiful bra with small ribbons and cute lace.

Kachiing.

And P, thought you maybe wanted to see a little something i wrote the other day.

Yes I write..

And this one was published.

Yeeey.

Thank you God for inveted make up

This is for the girls who reads my blog.

Cus boys, you will never understand this one.

When girls are sick...fever and feel not so "million bucks" kind of thing we dont wear that favourite perfume, that sexy shirt or that expensive make up.

Soft shirt, maybe a pony tail and lip balm is our best friends.

But my dear readers.

Today the fever-world of E changed.

I went up.

Ice-cold shower and the most expensive hair products.

Flat-iron hair, make up to die for and big creols in the ear.

New top, mini skirt and warm leggings with a couple of black over knee on top.

(just in case)

Black high heels boots, a splash of Burberry Brit and I felt like, if not a million bucks, so at least a half...

Fresh air!

A walk down town and met some friends.

Coffee in the new coffeshop...my style!

Pink walls, cupcakes and a country girly type of feeling.

I am not well...yet.

But this is a good start.

And sweet lovely Sara.

What would I do without you?

My partner on the dancefloor and the kitchen.

Sweetest girl ever.

This is for you.

And, I hope you like the gifts I am bringing later.

I wanna dance...

Flirty eyes

Perfect hair

Golden bling bling

A crowded dancefloor

and this one...

Movie time...

Someone told me this was me...

We will see.

Movie, coca cola with ice and lemon and a blancet in the sofa.

Perfect.

Poor sick E...

I am sick.

Very sick...

Fever, a sore throat that feels like its razor blade and a head that weights about 100 kg.

I hate being sick, not just cus of the reasons above.

No, I get so pathetic and pitiful.

Nothing is good enough.

Not the new made tea-No,its the wrong cup.

Not the candy M bought- oh no, I dont like those...

The pillow is to hard and the bed is to soft.

I am such a bitch when I am sick so I thank God its not that often.

You have a hard time believe those baby blue ones can be mean?
That cute face can turn in to a monster?

That bright voice can shout out awful things?

Oh trust me my dear readers.

They can...and I do.

Saturday afternoon...E-style

Recipe:

Wearing some new baggy jeans and a dark green army top from Africa.

With a bowl of raspberry sorbet in one hand, my favourite reggaeton on the speakers...high.

Moving my hips and making those moves I had to forget the day before...

Oh its good to be alone sometimes and just be me.

Back to home...

Hello my sweet readers.

No, I am not dead, neither have I forgot about you...

I just had a good time, at my parents house celebrating christmas, down town dancing...and with friends I had not seen in a while.

Shall we start with christmas eve?

Good food, presents and family.

Very E-style.

Even had time for a walk and a second for the soul with a friend from the north.

The day after christmas means party.

But...first church service and some tunes that made me think about

Grandfather. First christmas without the person that means so much to me.

Lighted a candle for him and I hope He saw it from above.

So...back to the house, got some drinks and did a make up...this evening was made for party.

A very different night, with a twist from Chile.

They have the rhythm in their blood and I envy them.

I where lucky if I understood 2 words in each sentence...but you know what?

It did not matter, cus I had a smile on my face the whole night and thank you A for treating me like a princess.

We went out to the city by the sea and tried to make some dancing on the floor...

But I guess they dont listen to either RnB or Reggaeton .

So, one dance only to this one with the (by my meaning) hottest guy on the club and then just sit and relax with a drink or two...

(According to how my head felt the day after...I guess it was more then two though)

The best thing about going out in your "hometown" is the people you thought You never see again.

Every time I went to the bar it was someone hugging me with a" E- oh my God.... what are you doing here..bla bla..."

Met Sweet F and J from school and a whole bunch of people from the past!

And even if I like where I stay right now, its not that bad coming back now and then.

I think its important for the soul.

Came home and got spoiled with a guitarplay in private.

This was one of the songs and I liked it very much.

A weak spot I admit it.

So..train back to home and a longing feeling inside.

I will figure it out...

I always do.

I end this with the weirdest pick up line I got that night...from sweet Nelson of course.

"Hey girl, you look gorgeous and so do I...so, you have to decide"

Me- decide what?

"If you gonna spend your night with me..Cus when I kiss you, you will go where the angels are...up there in heaven"

Me-(laughing)well, thanks but no thanks.

Then he felt asleep in the sofa...

Haha

Do you have it?

I talk about the christmas feeling of course.
Cus I do...
Finally.
The morning started with a different twist.
Interesting and fun!

Merry Christmas!

Butterflies and a second thought...

I thought I never blushed.
I also thought I could be cool and handle it.
Maybe it looked that way, but inside me - there where and still are butterflies flying and happy faces cheering.
I kind of like this feeling.
A stolen moment...
One cold walk down the beach?

We will see...

Addicted girl...

Ramlösa is the thing for me.

That and very spicy thai thats on its way.

I told them- spice it up...and then add some more chili..Thank you.

Thats E-food of tonight.

Chicken, vegs and fried rice.

Oh I am grateful living in a town with late openhours.
To this- a movie with that christmas feeling I need so bad.

Will it work?

You tell me.

Talked to cute A today...made some plans for the D-day.

Interesting or just crazy?

I dont know yet.

Sometimes I need that living on the edge...

Think He knows that.

Raspberry cakes and fluffy cupcakes

Spent the whole morning in the kitchen baking.

Yes very cheeky.

And thank you P for the cupcakes tins!

Last night was Gothenburg and the new Jim Carry movie...

Sooo funny and the perfect way to spend the evening.

Now its a very E-progam on the tv.

Christmas with a swedish designer...

Oh we love him!

Kick off and music

A kick off with the staff and some entertainment in a city nearby.
A quick "get together before and have some drinks" at Y´s place.
Met some new people..and me and cute S had a very hard time not to laugh about a particular someone.
Went in a caranvan to the place for the night and realized we where the youngest.
Or almost.
Food was awful and music great.
You cant have it all huh?
One of the entertainers where Jeerk and one of the numbers they did was This one...
A dance group that amazed us.
Perfect!
Its a real shame the Street-danceclass I wanted to join was to far away.

Very well...we looked good and we had fun.
Today it was just 3 of us at work.
One to little maybe?
Got a cute present from lovely P...thank you for that.
Baking-classes in my kitchen?
Raspberry cakes and chocolate chip cookies.

What do we have in the shoppingbag?

How cute are they?

Very, so I bought them...Only 6 $.. a real bargain!

Todays menu...

Todays menu is as following:

A quick shower and a golden shimering makeup.

Breakfast downtown and a vanilla chai with M.

Go to the mall and find a goldchain to my new cross that arriwed from Ebay.

Have some lunch and then prepare for tonight- kick off with work and a christmas concert.

Will be fun!

Of course me and sweet S go together...another perfect partner in crime and joy.

And P, I am so curious about your new white blog.

Now I better hurry if I shall get ready.... I have to much hair on my head to iron and new makeup to try on...

Jeej its good to be a girl.

This is on my speakers right now... Something to think about maybe?

A Nasheed of Dawud Wharnsby

(And yeah...the dress above, isnt it gorgeous ?? Maybe the next thing to buy in the world of E..)

So beautiful...

I am rarely speechless.

But this night, after the consert I was.

It was one of the most beautiful things I have ever heard.

With tears in my eyes and goose bumps on my skin I left the church and felt

the christmas feeling more then ever before.

One of the songs the sang was this one...

Hurry and makeup dont match....

Hi people.

Just wanted to give you a quick Hello before I am off again.

A christmas concert is the next thing today.

Will be lovely for the right feeling inside.

After that- baking with cute S.

A replay from last year, and oh we did that just fine.

Saffron cupcakes, candy and maybe a suprice?

Meanwhile...when I am off, here is a beautiful song.

And yes S, I found it.

Google is the thing.

After the music and kitchen love- something for the fantasy in my head.

"Ne milya..."

Good Karma

To many people in this town are homeless.

They are in a situation most of us can not image.

Some of them are addicted with drugs, some of them just had a bad start.

Either way.

Its not fare and I will do something.

I will start volunteer work in a house down town.

They make breakfast and dinner for those people.

A place to meet people, talk to someone or just get a smile back can make the day.

Everyone cant do everything, but everyone can do something.

If you dont have money, spend some of your time,

If your time is insufficient, give some money.

Just like a child...

A day in the bakery.

Did 12 different cakes and the whole time with a smile on my face.

A little flour on my cheeks and blueberrys,raspberry and chocolate in a lovely mix.

Got a little something on my way home.

Sweet P stopped me as I was walking by and gave me a little brow paperbag.

"Wednesdays-sweets to the kiddo"

Thanxs Cutiepie!

Now- a hot bath and some bubbles.

Music on of course.

Its that time...

When those iceblue ones feels heavy and the mouth cant stop yawning...

When the routines for the night is done...The brushing of teeth, the combing of the thick brown hair and the walk around the apartment to check the lights.

Cats are one step ahead, laying in my bed, closed eyes and the tail hidden beneath their paws.

As I walk around in my , for the night perfectly matched outfit, babypink hotpants and the new bra with cute ribbons on it I couldnt help reaching my hand out to the stereo...

Carefully choose what song who would match my mood right now.

It was this one.

It may be on the whole night...in a very low tune.

Sleeping with the sound of music is very E.

Good night.

A new viewer...

This is a smile for the partner in crime...

Or in the fantasy world I need sometimes.

His name is L and we say welcome to the world of E.

Its allready done...in my head.

I am talking about my big balcony.

The sofas, tables, candles, ikons and waterpipe.

All things are done, in my head.

Now its only the picking up part left to do.

Took a little trip to the store that have everything i need for this.

Yes it will be expensive...

But it wíll be a room for the soul.

To lay on the sofa and read, to have dinner partys or just do

this

Now its time for work.

I think sweet P is there to light up my day also!

Finally...

Some time for writing and not just a quick " hey and bye".

A scent of saffron and cacao spreading in my apartment.

The golden light from the christmastree makes the atmosphere more real.

M is taking " a quick nap" on the sofa, when the "quick" was gone and I realized it will

be for a while, I got a blancet and layed on top of him...

Sleeping like a child.

New working hours for him, and many of those for me.

Its like our lifes are different now.

Not in a bad way...just different.

Almost all gifts for christmas are bought.

Feels so good to dont have that "must" over my head.

Movie in te big town last night was good.

Aliens and forces from a world we dont know was interesting...

What if?

I dont know if I am "allowed" to belive in aliens when I am a christian...

And I dont know if i do...

But we cant be alone...right?

What if...

There is someone, a girl, sitting in her sofa writing this sentence like me...right now in a place we dont know about.

Hmm...to new age for you?

Well, sometimes its good to think and not just go with the flow.

*Yawning*

Oh I am so very glad that the scarf is invented.

Woke up with my hair standing in every direction¨, fluffy eyes and a head who was reminding me about every single glass of wine, champagne and drinks.

A scarf around my head, a white shirt and jeans makes such a different.

For now.

Last night was great... as always.

Persian food- lamb, chicken, pies and the cutes saffron cupcakes with tiny hearts on them.

Today I hope there will be a trip to the big city and a movie.

Maybe a visit in te restarant with the Turkish atmosphere?

Quick paus then off again...

Not much new to read in the world of E.

Not cus everything is boring, but many many hours at work this week.

Overtime is a routine from now on it seems.

14 hours last night when the christmas food is on its way.

Tonight we are going to cute A for a persian dinner.

Will be sooo good to have another persons food.

Nothing to think about, just laugh and wine.

Yes!

Living the dream...

After a few years break from the writing, the imagination and the medieval scent.

I am back in the game of rôle-play.

Found a page just in my taste...

With less dragons and magic to more dukes and knights.

Maybe a small inn or a mystical forest?

I also found a perfect partner in crime...

Mr Cor Darei is maybe slightly younger on paper.

But thats the thing about rôle-play ... Be what you wanna be.

Whenever you want to.

Whats new?

Nothing much...

M called last night.

Wanted to answer...but did not.

Its snowing.

I havent decided if I like it or not...yet.

Tired and longing...

Winter is on its way.

As I walked down town this morning the streets was covered with white dust and ice.

Hard to have a normal walk when you wear sneakers E...

Busy day at work and many people both inside the kitchen..and outside in the restaurant.

I just wanna hide behind a blancet in my sofa with a cup of hot tea.

And so I am.

Trying out my new earring,,, very " hey-i-live-in-Ibiza" kind of.

Me like alot.

Maybe there is a little bohemiam girl inside me.

I know one who is.

Is she working tomorrow I wonder...

Perfect picture...

This pic is exactly me right now.
Lying in bed, on my stomach, wearing my glasses and writing on my laptop.
Had a nightmare and cant go back to sleep.
Wanna hear about it?
If you know me, you know I hate crocodiles.
More then anthing on this earth.
In my dream M had putted a baby crocodile in the mailbox and when i reached down my hand to get the morning paper the ugly little thing just jumped right up and started to make creepy noices and ran under my sofa.
I started to pick a fight with M for being so stupid and asked him to find the awful little thing.
He did not.
And when I got to bed and just had fallen asleep...
There where hundreds of crocodiles running next to me, under me and on top of me.
I woke up with a ; aaaaaaaaaaaaah!
All warm and with a heavy breating.
And there we are now.
I cant fall asleep.
What if the animals are under my bed?
I am to scared to look.

Great day in the big city...

Okey.

Shopping with S in gothenburg all afternoon and now I am tired.

What did we found?

Present to my little brother...

A gift to sweet P ;-)

Some candy for E.

And perfect extentions for my hair... think I will wear it on saturday.

Cus saturday means a big dinner something with beautiful A.

Persian food and gossip....maybe a glass of wine or two...

I will make some good rocky road for her and put in a cute glass jar with a red ribbon.

Cheeky?

Yes sir.

Ah thank you God for a day off...

Woke up after a very weird dream about 06...

Went up, took a glass of water and just leaned to the kitchen sink.

Why do I dream about people I dont like?

Told my 2 catc who sat nice down my feet that its way to early for breakfast.

So, they went back to bed.

So did I.

Woke up the next time at 11.

Perfect.

Putted on the tv, gave the cats brerakfast and went in to the bathroom to brush my teeth.

As I stood there I heard a voice I heard many times before.

Walked back into the livingroom and saw Mr Di Leva on the tv.

He is cool.

If everyone had just a little bit of him inside,

this world would be a much better place.

"Some say paradise is in heaven, I think it can be here on earth, if we just start to really see eachother"

Clever.

Cinema and tomatoes...

Had a busy day with sweet S at work.

Many stupid questions from guest but we just had our lovely smiles glued right on our faces all day long.

Went home, quick shower and a new face and run to the car.

Gothenburg and a movie.

What to wear when its so cold outside my little nose just freeze even by thinking walking more then 10 meters...

Well.

Jeans, a big scarf and black shirt it was.

Sneakers a la streetwear who did not work on the ice-covered streets.

But at least it looked good.

Movie was okey.

People behind me with the high laugher was not.

At the way home I leaned my head on the car-window and just looked up in the black sky.

So many stars and one airplane.

Have You noticed how free and alive you feel up there?

When you see the clouds from above.

Last time I flew I saw the streets of Paris and the desert mountains of Morocco.

Pretty cool if you think about it for a while and not take it for granted.

Tomorrow its the D day... or S day, cus there will be serious shoping with my lovely girl S.

In the big town.

Oh, and there will be coffee...and maybe a little trip to the bakery?

Now its " Cosy sofa time" with M.

Did a tomatoe/salmon sandwish and a big glass of mango juice.

Yummie!

Before I leave you my sweet readers I wanna give you a song...

Something to sleep on maybe.

And P, welcome back to Sweden.

We missed you.

Marvelous...

Okey people.

Free day yesterday and spent the most day inside, buidling some strength back.

So, it was chocolate ice cream and alot and alot of fresh juice here infront of the tv.

Never watch Idol or any of those shows, but cus I did not felt that good I kind of let the show goes.

And my God.

This sweet guy just blow my mind away.

Marvelous!

Yes, I picked up the cell and gave him my vote.

Twice.

Now, my private God of my mind is on the tv.

And she is soo beautiful.

So, good night to you...

I will stay right here, under my blue quilt and watch Stars on ice.

Ginger & Chicken

After a long day, take away thai seems to be the right thing to do.

So I did.

Spicy chicken noodles with ginger.

My favourite jeans broke earlier...

Hmm..

This means I need to do some sewing.

Not very E.

Maybe I can ask my mother, I am a daughter of a dressmaker you see...

Have one glance on the tv... the show is "are you smarter then a 5:th grader"

And oh my... American people is dumb.

They have no idea how much 5 x 2 is...

Neither if polarbear eat penguins..

Think about that for a while.

Something to lean your eyes on...

She is pretty hot that girl.

Now I must get ready...

Hair must be straight, make up to be layed.

A shirt to iron (iiih)

And then its of to the train station for an hour of leaning my head on the window, listen to my new Mp3, eat my green apple and just let time flow...

P, have the best weekend up in the north!

I hope your cell can recive sms...

I got a present...

Its pink.

It has my music on.

Its small.

And its mine.

Thank you M!

In love again... E -style

I fall in love often.

Every week really.

This time its Lenny Cravitz who is the lucky one.

Yummie!

Christmas baking and a gentle tone...

Yesterday was a long day.

Worked 07 - 20.30 and then almost right to bed afterworths.

Today- not so long but I burned myself on the hot butter on the stove..

Poor E :-(

Well, P know how to cheer me up and came walking in like a fresh wind with not only one but 3 little gifts.

Thank you sweety!

(There will be some more pie...just wait and see)

At home its a little chaos with soffron scent in the air.

We making Lussebullar.

A whole bunch of them.

Or, Me myself is trying to get some type of order in this chaos.

Talking in a very sweet voice, explaining how I would like to have my things done.

M on the other hand, is doing his best of enoying me by making Lusse-snails.

There is no such thing.

He does not care.

(He got just a small piece of dough...so, I guess that will be like 5 snails..at most)

Some to have for our selfs and some to give away to those I know not have the same passion for baking as I do.

(My mother is one of them)

Will be leaving for the cïty by the sea tomorrow...

Train, ferry and then the bus.

Nice with another kind of air in my lungs.

Have been to long ago.

Well done E...

All though we have no snow or no really cold air outside.

The christmas feeling in E´s apartment is as full it can be.

I think I just finished the perfect christmas tree.

Gold and red was the theme for this year.

Between the Pa rum pum pum pum and the Glögg I decorated our tree.

Standing on my toes to reach out to the higest spot and to put on the golden star.

Perfect!

And P.. i smiled the whole time as I was reading Your novel...

I got that "summer in the skärgård" kind of feeling...

Right or wrong?

But I loved it!

You wright exactly as you are..

Funny, a little bit flirty and with a twist!

Bravo to you girl!

A secret wish...

My favourite christmas song is this one.

Cus I sing myself, I get rather picky about songs and what their meaning is.

This one is so beautiful and honest.

I have a secret wish...

To be singing this one in early Christmas-morning service infront of a full seated crowd.

To really bring the christmas out of my lungs.

In a perfect world...do we have time to get sick?

Food poison.

Its ironic, a chef gets food poison.

But I did.

And I feel like shit.

Wearing just a top and hotpants, my long hair in 2 ponytails, a cup of tea next to me and a warm blancet.

Uh...

I better put some Disney on and wait to M gets home.

Disney is the thing for E-always makes me feel good.

What to watch...hmm..lets see..

Beauty and the beast it is.

I remeber when I saw this the first time and Oh, how much I wanted to be a princess and wear that golden dress.

I drew pictures of her and all the other names- Yasmine, Snow whithe and my favourite Pocahontas

I wonder how many times I´ve been singing that song...

How many stars is it on the black sky?

Another day of beauty and gossip...

Okey.... thought about a break.

But why...really?

Sometimes life is a bitch...sometimes its an angel.

Nevermind.

I like writing...its like a balm to my soul.

Today I was with P in the beauty salon again...

She did a new kit of nails... Me, just a first aid thing...

After that- some hot coffee and secrets in a low voice.

Called M and he picked me up after a hug and a promise that a new date with P is on monday.

Went to the big mall..and what did I found...

A christmas tree... a perfect one.

And its mine.

I wonder...if I should break my little box of how a tree should look like.

Every year its the same..

Candles, red apples, tinsel sparkling...

Nothing more..less is more.

But, so many things happend to me this year.

So why not spice my tree up a bit?

I am thinking silver, blue and maybe some pink?

Oooh...crazy in the world of E.

Father called.

Told me whatever I do...whatever I say, he will always love me.

He will always stand behing me in everything I do.

I love him.

He said the perfect things in the perfect time in my life.